நடை பயணம் - ஒரு புதிய தொடர்

அன்புடையீர்

நான் சமீபத்திய பதிவு ஒன்றில் தினசரி உடற்பயிற்சிகள் ஆரம்பித்து இருப்பது பற்றி பிரலாபித்து இருந்தேன். முக்கியமாக, வீட்டில் செய்யும் யோகா பயிற்சிகளை விடவும் பூங்காவில் சென்று நடபத்தில் எனக்கு ஏற்பட்டுள்ள சொல்லண்ணா ஆர்வம் பற்றியும் அது பற்றி மேலும் எழுதுவதாக சொல்லி இருந்தேன்.

முதலில் அது பற்றிய என் எண்ணத்தில் ஆங்கிலத்தில் தான் எழுத்து வடிவம் பெறுவதாக இருந்தது. (பெயர் "Talk the Walk"........!!! நன்றாக இருக்கிறதா ?). 

இன்று திடீரென்று ஒரு எண்ணம்....... 

தமிழிலும் ஆங்கிலத்திலும் மாறி மாறி - சித்தன் போக்கு சிவன் போக்கு - என்பார்களே  (நானும் ஒரு சித்தனின் - மன்னிக்க - பித்தனின் மன நிலை கொண்டவன் தானே ?) அது போல -  மன நிலைக்கேற்ப மாறி மாறி எழுதலாம் என்று "தற்போதைய" (கவனிக்க.....) எண்ணம். 

மொழியை விட முக்கியம் எனக்கு என்னவென்றால் - இந்த எண்ணங்கள் ஒரு தொடராக விரியப்போவது..... 

அங்கு நான் ரசிக்கும் விஷயங்களும், சின்ன சின்ன சம்பவங்களும், பிற மனிதர்களையும் (என்னையும் கூட) கவனிப்பதில் எனக்கு இருக்கும் ஆர்வமும் என்னால் முடிந்த அளவு எழுத்தில் செதுக்குவதில் எனக்கு ஒரு சுய நல நோக்கம் இருக்கிறது......

(முக்கிய விஷயம் - நான் அங்கே யாரிடமும் பேசுவது இல்லை.......யோகப்பயிற்சிகளில் ஏற்படும் அந்த மன ஒருமைப்பாடு தரும் இந்த புதிய வழக்கத்தில் - அது தான் நடக்கும் பழக்கம் -  மறந்தும் கூட யாரிடமும் பேச தோன்றுவது கூட இல்லை.....)

கைகால் தளர்ந்து போய்  என் ரதம் சுண்டி போய்  "அந்த" கடைசி நாட்களில் இந்த பதிவுகள் எனக்கு மன நிறைவு தரப்போவது உறுதி.....பழைய நினைவுகளில் (முக்கியமாக நாம் இரசித்த கணங்களை மீண்டும் நினைத்து பார்ப்பதில் நம் எல்லாருக்கும் எப்போதும் மகிழ்ச்சிதானே ??)

இதை பொறுமையாக படிக்கும்  உங்களுக்கும் ஏதாவது சிறு பலன் ஏற்பட்டால் மேலும் மகிழ்ச்சி.....!!

எத்தனை பதிவுகள் ? இரு மொழிகளில் சரி பாதியா ? எவ்வளவு நாட்கள் தொடருவேன் ? போன்ற எந்த கேள்விகளுக்கும் என்னிடம் இந்த கணம் பதில் எதுவும் இல்லை......!! போகப் போக பார்ப்போம்.....சரிதானே ? 

ஒரு சின்ன விஷயத்தை சொல்லிவிட்டு முடித்து விடுகிறேன்......(இன்று மங்கள ஆரம்பம் மட்டுமே........).

இன்று  பூங்காவின் நுழைவாயிலில் வைக்கப்பட்டிருக்கும் கரும்பலகையில் இருந்த வாசகங்கள் பிரமிக்க வைத்தன......இது வரை நான் படிக்காத / கேள்விப் படாத அந்த சக்தி மிக்க வரிகளை நீங்களும் பாருங்கள்........

"பலன் எதிர்பார்க்காமல் விதைத்துக்கொண்டே இரு.......

மரமாக மாறினாலும் சரி ......உரமாக மாறினாலும் சரி......"

இதை சிந்தித்து எழுதிய அந்த மகராசனும், அதை கர்ம சிரத்தையாக கரும் பலகையில் வார்த்த அந்த சாதாரண மனிதனுக்கும் என் சிரம் தாழ்ந்த நன்றி.....!!

ஒரு வகையில் நான் அகண்டத்தில் எழுத்வத்தில் மேலும் ஒரு பரந்த நோக்கம் இருக்கிறது....."விழலாக" மாறினாலும் சரி.......என்று தாராளமாக சேர்த்து கொள்ளலாம். என் அகண்டம்  பிரும்மாண்டமானது தான் ......ஆனால் கொஞ்சம் தனிமையாக இருந்தாலும் பாதகமில்லை.....!! 

("தனிமை கண்டதுண்டு....அதில் சாரம் இருக்குதம்மா......")

அன்புடன் சுரேன் 




   

Addendum to my earlier musings on KUPPAI

Dear Gowri
Have I told you before that God speaks to me these days quite often....?? Not sure if you had brushed off the coincidences with Baba as rubbish...but believe me, he does keeps communicating quite often.
Many times when I intensely work and plan few things, few bottlenecks just move away on its own before even I plan on them (I can immediately get reminded of few official meetings and clashes between priorities.....but you will say IT HAPPENS TO EVERY ONE....Hmmmm)
Now let me tell you today morning God spoke to me in some glaring manner....YES.
Remember my kuppai posting.....? I was roaming couple of days back near my residence consciously taking the opposite direction of the road which I normally use to come to office. Just wanted to know how developed the road is....and the shops available....and of course, if there are some nice smiling faces to look at......(I mean common gender !!!)
Well, to my surprise, I found a big waste basket (very similar to our ONYX / NEEL METAL FANATIA) kept just within 25 metres from my home but in the opposite side of the road, by paradox. Immediately the thought about my "smart" question to the lady in the kuppai episode flashed in the mind. I really laughed at myself...AND also thanked God that she did not have the presence of mind (or knowledge about this ?) to tell me bluntly about this basket.....!!
Well, today morning.....WATCH CAREFULLY......I walked to office in this new route taking my big waste cover.....(yes, I discovered a new way to reach the main road taking the OPPOSITE DIRECTION too...I can demo you when you come to CBE) and as this thought about my earlier visit came to my mind. I was smiling at myself thinking this is a good subject to make a posting to you @ AGANDAM.
Well, believe me, I could not take a breath at the scene that happened....RIGHT in front of my eyes a big lorry (exactly like our ONYX) was about to lift up the big dust bin......and I paced up bit faster and gestured to the staff members that I want to add this one. The crew with typical CBE mindset....actually switched off the basket, waited for me, accepted my KUPPAI cover with both their hands ....and YES smiled at me broadly wishing me !!!
I felt happy at this message by GOD...as well as felt he spoke to me once again....
suchoo
ps:- I sincerely feel bad that I have not recorded down few other little instances where I enjoyed Baba speaking to me.....Really feel tragic about the loss to the web world.....Hmm...thats all you deserve....!! at least let me remember to capture them by scribbling in diary....

** Moving OUT **

I have sold out this blog to Suchoo/Surendran ;) . I am moving out to my own blog - http://www.gowrisays.blogspot.com and let Suchoo have this blog for his independent self. Thank You.

Making of Managers - 22 :: "I become a Manager"

Dear Gowri
The mere fact that I am posting this one after two earlier postings on "transcendance" and "Moment of Bliss" could hint you that this news has not rushed too much into me....!! Exactly 6 months back it was strongly rumoured that I am going to take over at my old department as a manager...when my boss was moved else where. I know my boss sincerely tried for it (I still doubt that I did not get it because of his strong FAVOUR towards me) but I remained unperturbed. In fact some time earlier, I got so frustrated and dissappointed when I wrongly came to a conclusion I am going to get into my passion...training...!! It was quite a stupidity on imaging it guided by a mail from a trust worthy friend.
It was a poetic justice that the same friend (who reported to me) sent me an sms on wednesday congratulating me. Then the current manager of the earlier department wished me....and conveyed informally about the decision announced at the management meeting to all managers. To confirm it further, when I travelled with my current boss in his car in the evening, he too shook hands with me....and suggested me to wait for the All employee mail.
I hoped to have it on thursday (which is essentially GURU vaar....and I have started these days going to Baba temple on thursday evenings.....and have started enjoying the stillness amidst the jolt and crowd at the temple) but the mail never came.
On friday when I was having breakfast in the canteen, my mobile rung up and when I saw that it was one of my AGANDAM friends, I smiled to myself...YES the mail is OUT.....!! As I reached my desk, I had around 50 wishes in the mail box and there were quite a few at the new office reaching me and wishing me...(beware, this is the first managerial promotion at the new office). I smilingly shook hands with every one.....and thanked every single note that I received.
It was a long day on friday...and an unforgettable day.
This promotion (after 3 - 4 months) could mean some extra money, it also means an independent cubilcle much larger than the normal work station, it definitely means more previliges to take decisions and entry into management meetings.....Every single reality about the new role is triggering in my brain one by one.....!! MY God....I understand how much I had longed for this...only when I am getting it....!!
Good that I did not have this 6 months earlier. I still remember that I was quite shaky and not sure of myself....Today I am lot more wiser, much more sharp and pointed in my (official) communicatin and emotionally stable than my earlier days. I also realise that there is abundant room to improve further too...and I can make this as an opportunity as a self improvement tool more than serving scores of others who are going to report to me.
Well, the title of this series becomes really meaningful only from now on...I am now truely empowered to facilitate lot of managers for my organisation, , my country...and for my world.....!! I remember having renamed it in the context of becoming a trainer earlier....Now, I have more than one avenue to do it......!!
Krishnaarpanam....
Suchoo

Moment of Bliss - 24 :: An appreciation mail

Dear Gowri
It is quite natural for one to get lot of BEST WISHES mail when he gets a managerial promotion. It was not surprising for me to get around 80 - 100 notes expressing their happiness on the All employee mail that was triggered by 9.30 Am on friday.
While thanking them one by one, I was particularly enjoying "few" extra phrases in their Best Wishes mail like " you deserve it long back"...and "Delighted to see this mail"....from few of my friends. I was also noting that there was a good distribution of GRADES of people who had responded....
This particular note amused me. It was sent by a girl who has been working with me for nearly two years. Joined at the entry level, she has climbed up as a senior processor and worked with a team which is closely knitted to my operations where I worked earlier. We know each other quite well but never I can call this relationship as friendship OR has extended beyond smiles and basic courtesies. She - by co-incidence - has come to CBE thru' some other team where she joined after getting relieved from her old team AS I have moved to the project team from my erstwhile team. For that matter just one person had come to CBE from my old team who reported to me...and being as a focal point I have interacted with all the 100 staff at the new office....as the basic role until now had been to facilitate them and to settle down them in terms of infrastructure.
This girl about whom I had been describing is just one among the 100 and this small note that came from her made me realise how much I have impacted people around me and the number of admirers that I have. I am sure the messages about me and my style of functioning have reached my new team (which is 42 in number now which could touch more than 100 over a period of next 6 - 8 months) who was pin drop silent when I called them to the meeting room on friday....for a self introduction. Many of them are too young and was quite tongue tied unable to digest that some one who was supporting them administratively is taking over as their lead.....I am sure they talk to each other...and the expectations are going too high on me.
This note delighted me so much that I feel so confident about making little bit of changes in my overall personality and style....to cater to the new role and the demands of the position.
Well, I keep talking about the "note" but not even showing it, Huh ? Here it is....
__________________________________________________________________
From: ABC
Sent: 27 March 2009 09:39
To: Surendran, Suren (V.)
Subject: Wishes
Just to spill my thought:
God has sowed the seed to give fruits.
All the best Suren.
Regards,
ABC
____________________________________________________________________

Transcendance - 25 ::: Being "high"...

Prelude :: Though I have made lot of wierd postings until now, this could be the wierdest one unti now....Watch out...g
Dear Gowri
Being a practioner of pranayam yourself, I am sure you will understand the first para of this posting without much explanation. If you give a break to the breathing practise for some time and re-start after a while, the first few days will be basically for a warm up....and you get into your full rhythm only after a while. isn't it ? The same was very true with me too....and As I belong to 1997 batch, you can appreciate I had more number of slips and discontinuances than you.....and every other Isha meditator. I am not sure about how you take such gaps....and if you resolve feverishly that you will never skip practises again (do you ?), I have done it a thousand times....when ever I slid down when I am in a "snake".....only to recover gradually to my optimum energy level using yoga as a tool or rather a "ladder".....!!
In a way, I had theorically understood Sadhguru when he says that one does not DO yoga but it is a support system to be in yoga....!! He means YOGA as a state of mind which I can theorically appreciate as I had seen the glimpses of it during my highs....Do not mind confessing that there had been some super natural experiences to me once a while...which makes me never lose touch with my practises completely (there were instances where I did not do the basic breathing practise for couple of months too !!).
Now, why this bragging .....and why I am making it consciously in past tense ? YES, it appears that I have reached some level internally.....and though I was bit erratic in practise (not a long off....but since Mahashivarathri which was a month back, I had done just 50 % of the days only....), I seem to be in a mood that I am afraid is not quite a normal one for me until now. I am bit too involved in office these days....and I am feverishly completing few things in the project team (we call ourselves as center management team...these days) before I move on to operations...consequent to the management decision to promote me...The late sitting and coming early (couple of days I reached office around 6 AM not because of any work pressure but because of work excitement...) did not matter to me much....and I skipped not just the practises but also my cooking routine.....for several days. In the past one month, I have cooked for max 50 % of the days...and leaving out the chennai stay days, did not mind gulp the food available at the canteen....!!
Now, the house was a big mess when I reached home exhausted on friday...and I looked around...where to start....(including few vessels in the kitchen sink for more than 3 days)....and decided to go and stay at Isha for entire saturday..... before I do my household chores. When I roamed about in the premises of Isha aimlessly...and sat under a tree to take up few decisive goals about the second quarter (I do this once a while...The first quarter, I was bit conservative not to take any goals as the primary goal was to settle down hasslefree at CBE ...the promotion was just a bonus !!), I was in a typical mood...that made me without a word within....and eyes bit moist without any big reason.
No pranayam for past three days...it did not matter....!! there were couple of known faces whom I know very well....it did not matter....!! the rock bench in which I was sitting cross legged writing my diary was not so comfortable...it did not simply matter....!! I eventually reached home only by 9 PM in the night....and started to work....fully charged....!!!
The real confirmation on my mood came only yesterday....by 7 PM. After working really like a dog.....cleaning up vessels, cooking and eating and cleaning up the vessels again (!!!), washing a huge volume of clothes in two instalments, cleaning up the home, purchasing provisions....cleaning up and arranging the kitchen....so much to do that the whole of yesterday I did not even sit for a minute (except when I ate the lunch....potato curry, kothamalli chutney, rasam....curd and naartha ilai podi) ....but it simply did not matter.
I went to Baba temple in the evening refreshing myself after an unforgettable good bath. While I stood in front of Baba, tears rolled from my eyes (which has happened many times when I am doing the practises regularly...and when my lungs are brimming with oxygen intak capacity) and it appeared to me like a flash that I have reached my "high" inspite of any external support like a Sadhuru Lecture OR my practises....
Yes, seems I arrive at the next gear.....!! Today morning, I got up at 3 AM so fresh though I slept only by 11.30 PM....prepared my lunch...and reached office as early as 6.45 AM.....!!
Wish to be here...at this level of intensity always.....!!
Suchoo