Moment of Bliss - 18 ::: Interim count of May postings

Dear Gowri
I casually counted the number of postings in current month...just 18 including this...and it was quite a moment of bliss when I had posted 16 out of this...most of them quite long ones...and really wonderful recordings of subtle things that I have experienced during these hot chennai days......(I never experienced any heat.....!! you know)
Now, this could be the final count of this month too as we are sitting on the last day.....It could be quite nice if you have the time and sanity (and ego) to make two postings to make it to a round figure...But, I am not the one who takes up number goals these days...with vanagiri wisdom...
I only wish you register a plot of land to nithya which may expand the plot of land in your own head by couple of inches...AND you have lot of time and patience to write in our blog...
Until then, I dont mind sharing my thoughts and feelings and provide you some entertainment....We have do die the moment we cease to entertain / be of some value to ourselves or to some one outside to us ...RIght ??
Blissfully yours..
suchoo

Transcendance - 14 ::: On Clarificaton

Prelude : this could be an unique piece in this entire series...Better read through and patiently also read the closing line....and I am sure you will agree
Dear Gowri
I had narrated on my first session with the senior people at office on communication when I glimpsed Sai Baba in the ring of a girl who was a participant...(Just connecting). As usual, after the session, there were half dozen participants around me and they were having some nice words about lot of aspects of my training.....(one boy, I mentioned earlier, told me that I reminded our "trainer" in delivering style !!)
Now, there was a timid boy who never participated during the discussion / session but I found grasping every word that I was uttering...came to me very closely and asked me a fundamental (simple) question...."Sir, you said we have to use DEAR for the first acquaintance even though it is a female....will they not get ackward ?"...
This is a childish question but this needs lot of maturity to answer....I patiently responded to him in full and made him feel encouraged about this habit of clarification. This boy, perhaps, for the first time asked a doubt...and I dont want to discount him any way that he did not ask this doubt during the session.
It would have been wonderful if I had the energy to crack him and make him ask his doubt in front of every one....There are too many factors why such miracles cannot happen....starting from my potential, this boy's personal situations, time pressure that I had to constantly face, his exposure to world, the maturity levels of other participants, this boy's perception of others' maturity....to name a few"...
I really feel proud that this boy did not go out of the board room without clarifying his doubt....I am sure this is a first step towards this boy coming out of the shell completely....and I wanted to give my 2 minutes to him while there were 5 others standing along with me.....!! If Grace descends on him, he will definitely be a wonderful boy and I just did my part perfectly well..

Now, this small episode is not about suchoo's transcendance...but this posting is dedicated to lot of wonderful people around us who are getting bogged down by their own karma....and would like to abruptly end this piece with a prayer....."Let those who are tongue tied and hesitant to open their mouth.....flower into normal human beings who are capable of asking clarifications OR questions ....".
Yes, this piece will remain unique in Transcendance series as it is dedicated to the T of others....me already on roller coaster !!!!
suchoo

Making of Managers - 14 ::: @ office front

Dear Gowri
For quite some time, I have been recording my minor successes (really I consider what ever is narrated until now as Minor ones only....the major ones are yet to come when I reach my full voltage...right now, I am just getting charged...& ooze out little bit of my current due to technical inadequacies) on my future career....but I thought let me also sum up my official front...and the original title of this series...."Making of a Manager"....yes, its about my present prospects...
There was a major org restructuring in the department that I operate and our boss asked me to just focus on one area (which is not my favourite.....) and leave the "operations"...and routine things to two of my reportees...There were so many instances when he made it clear again and again...putting me slightly jittery....unable to have opportunities for my connecting abilities.
Now I am getting more and more clear (this is like jig saw puzzle....and arriving at things by thinking with calm mind) that my prolonged depression spell that I suffered (Jan 20th to Apr 1 week...until good friday exactly) was due to the unsuitable role that I was forced into....
In fact, I could not verbalise it properly and was shutting myself away from my dear team mates who too were puzzled why I became so tight lipped all of a sudden... Honestly, this was a case of mis-handling from my own side....and I do realise that I could have put myself in proper shape myself if only I had put my case clearly to my manager .....
Now I dont regret much as I set my journey to Shirdi on the morning of Good Friday....and I took the first session on communications on the next day I landed back to chennai...and with pepping up my soft skills, I became normal instantaneously....and have been on full throttle since then...
Now, during this period of two months, it was increasingly evident that my direct reportee could not handle the "operations" as expected by my boss and without much options, I was asked to chip in...I was longing for this word and I just barged in....
Believe me, in the past two weeks, I have done too many things in terms of improving the morale of the people and showing them possibilities of little little improvements at their work...and even to the extend of finding some solution to trivial things like organising our couriers more effectively AND binding up of old records to make the working environment cleaner and better...
Now, I cannot put into words, how I can do so many things...but the reality is that I did not do any thing myself...Its just that I always have instructions (thru emails, thru words OR through an eye wink / head shake) to all the people at the same time ...and take care of the tone and humour in what ever I do....things happen with their deep involvement and utmost devotion....I do want to add a word of caution that there could be couple of them who are suffocating with my speed of action...but I just make them without any armour....as I never openly hurt any one and seeing the majority's mood, they dont have much choice other than to obey (I ensure that I lavishly praise them, when they fall in line...just to make it clear that I am lot more matured than what they think).
The turnaround stories are too many and the sparkling eye balls of the team mates when they get started on some new intiative becoming familiar sight, I just want to humbly record that I am on rampage....But more pleasant news, is that I am not getting carried away and learning the art of being quiet and walk steadily in the floor...when the team members reduce their decibel level when they are socialising amongst themselves. I ensure I dont dominiate their personal lives any way....but keep giving signals that I am too focussed on things to be done..
Needless to say, I could see my boss getting slightly jittery in the past two days with some "avoidable" comments to me.....It was a surprise to me when I first heard it...and then started telling myself....that after all he is also human only.....its just a mistake that I had a larger than life opinion on him...People get insecured wheen some one starts becoming more effective.....!!

Well, I am just getting ready for the next level at office....Only wish I have the fullest blessings of my current boss to whom I owe a lot and his exit from the team is not after lot of heated arguements between us.....!! I am just getting more por-active in thinking and if only I am very aware with my movements with this gentleman, it could be a nice transition of responsibilities....

Krishnaarpanam
suchoo

Making of Managers 13 ::: I reached puberty TODAY

prelude ::: Please ignore my prior posting...In a way it is quite apt considering the topic that I spoke on...in today's practise session was "silence" !!!
Hi Gowri
No.13 they say is a unlucky number...It is quite a comedy to have this number for my today's posting for this series but I really dont mind as I am slowly going steady towards passion of my life and such silly misfortunes may not be capable of slowing down my march towards being a Trainer.....!!
To put it in nutshell, I arrive at the centre stage of this batch and quite eagerly look for the next 4 sessions too....Not to get elated about my successes but to learnt lot more which needs to be learnt.....!! Well, we were supposed to get ready with a topic (some thing general) and I had few thoughts on SILENCE which I casually tried extempored....while shitting yesterday (Yes, I meant it....see, this activity remains a signicant one in my life and all the turning points of my life). It was western commode and I talked to the wall in front of me....on silence and its power.....putting lot of things that I knew from Sadhguru and also few simple logical ones....I used an anology which was extremely appreciated by every one....I related it to darkness and told the group that SUN too has expiry date....!! the body was very well delivered...How about the opening and closing ??
I was lucky that when the II session started today after the break, there was a big pause when some one was asked to start off...(See my topic...SILENCE !!). I cashed in the opportunity and started extremely nicely with a pleasant manner...like this...."I looked around the study material where lot of topics were given...To be honest I did not even go through the complete list...Not much inspiring !! I thought I will better choose some thing on my own....I am going to share my thoughts on SILENCE...IT is a paradox isn't it ??"....
While ending too, I told the group "I am sure by now, you appreciate why silence is superior to speech...Let us realise this very clearly to be effective speakers....As a mark of respect to the grandeur of silence, I would request you not to clap for me when I finish....Let us better appreciate SILENCE instead of appreciating this person " showing at me !!
Now some thing more happened in today's class..During break, I casually heard some participant counselling our director and wanting to improve emails....and I joined them telling that I do have interest in this subject...The director asked me few questions and noted down few things on the content of what I told about email writing (I made it quite clear that I cannot share any materials with him as we have a strict Integrity policy at our company)....While I continued talking to this boy....He (the director) left to his seat and was scribbling down few things that I have told...and requested me again to join him for few more clarifications.....I sat in front of him and quite proud to say that I covered the content of our 6 hours training sessions in just 5 minutes.....because I was talking to some veteran.....As he scribbled down few of the things, I could see that his eyes were damn serious and he was looking at me very intently....as if he had discovered me....WHICH IS TRUE...Earlier He never got into so much details with me though he interacts nicely during the sessions with all (including me)
Now, this posting is not just to record my glee and my relief that getting a job in this industry is not going to be too competitive for me with my skill sets and capacity to improvise.....but to end with another wierd thing that happened.....(still having doubts if I should call these coincidences as "miracles"...)
While the director was writing down, casually I saw a book lying on his table...half read...(perhaps he read it while his mother took the class)....with Sai Baba's photo in the cover page....I abruptly stopped what ever I was talking and asked quite rudely "how did this man come here ?"....He could not understand for a while and I continued after a pause with shock "Believe me Sir, This person is chasing me like any thing for past two months...Any way I am sure I can cover that topic later to you just in case you are interested....!! let us continue with what ever we are talking !!"...His eyes - while he heard me telling this quite simply....AND when I explained the contents of the course that I handle at office....spoke to me lot more than his questions and clarifications....At last a veteran is looking at me intently and have started taking note of me !!!!
These days, I had a feeling if I am bit late in exploring this area...(public speaking / training)....and by any chance I should have done this class a decade back when I bumped on Isha.....?? BUT I nod my own head in refusal, as the flourishing that is happening today is well earned with the foundation of YOGA and the grasping power at the classes too is quite great just because of my age and experience....!!
Nothing happens unless the time has come...One need to just involve in the present....I have no regrets......Just focussing on getting ready for my ultimate profession.....THAT IS......to manufacture lot of Managers for India.... !!
Mera Bharat Mahaan !!
AND
Gurubyo Namaha !!
SUCHOO

Making of managers 13 ::: I

Making of Managers 12 ::: I continue to evolve....

Hi
I had narrated some thing on the last week's class and the specific absence of a loud mouthed gentleman in the subsequent classes....The topic was so overwhelming that I did not share the specific learnings AND also my improvisations over the previous two classes.
When the time came for some public speaking (which all of us did....after the first session when the theory part of it was handled), I did quite well and got some nice feedbacks from people around me.... I could meet others eyes, smile quite often, was quite emphatic when I argued for a point, used my hands quite well and most importantly ensured that my voice and message was heard by all present....
I also gave some feedback at the end of the class for a young boy who reached me and asked for feedback about his performance.... I could sense the craving to improve too much in him...and when he prompted when others were speaking, I told him we will talk later.... I gave him some crisp feedback...for which he appeared quite grateful...When I walked out of the hall, I really sensed that I was becoming like a partner of the Faculty in raising the morale level of participants ... without trying to be over smart like Mr.Jain....and in fact without even our Guru there knowing any thing about my such initiatives...It was a great session.
There were tremendous opportunities during the course of last week.... I took a session at office, I had an important & difficult official meeting at the Plant where I go for fortnightly meeting with the higher ups....(where I was able to manage a firing / scolding session to the best of my communications), I created an opportunity in our own team meeting on thursday to talk for 15 minutes about HOW TO fill up appraisal form which is round the corner...which requires telling them the need and then going into details....I could sense the pin drop silence when I spoke and enjoyed the roaring laughter when I cracked some joke.....There was also a meeting with our MD on the tough meeting that I had and he was empathatic on the manner I was treated and he expressed some words giving lot of confidence to me in terms of my future role....!!

During the training on email handling, I rehearsed and cracked a joke for the first time in my life and I delivered it perfectly which generated a roar of laughter....!! I was so alert that I waited until the laughter got subsided...and told the moral of the joke which brought about another round of laughter.... I was feeling the flow of thoughts much more coherent in the session and was at my best in handling the experienced people also.....very much like my earlier sessions when I handled junior team members... In fact I felt at ease to have these experienced people as I could go at my full speed and spotted only nodding heads..that they are following what I am telling....and without any hesitation, they participated in discussions and questioning me without any inhibitions (no tough questions came...may be, its just that I know every thing !!!! - I got raving feedbacks from many....including some people whom I know and in touch....(looks like some of the participants reported to them and they were found talking about me for "45 continuous minutes"....). One of my own team member who is normally quite calm joining this session, gave a raving feedback telling that during lunch time (break from session), some of the participants were telling that I was like an "external trainer"....!!! See, this is a paradox of the world !!
While I took the signature in attendance sheet of the participants (20 members), I also distributed the feedback forms and casually noticed (and got shocked) that the first one - a girl - was wearing a ring in her finger which was Shirdi Baba.... !! I was exhausted at 10 PM after the session but also relieved.....and particularly got delighted at this omen that has become quite a regular feature these days.....(Even just now, when I visited Anoo's periappa's house to have a look at her ailing paati, after sitting with the grand old lady for close to one hour, I moved to the next room where their daughter (anoo's cousin) had given birth to a child...I sat there for 10 minutes and when I lifted me up from the kneeled down position from the cradle, had to take support on the cot...and my hand got laid on a particular book...I casually looked at the open page of the book on which I was resting....It was Sai sat charitham...the english edition.....with His photo appearing at the corner of the page......)
Now, at office, lot of team members sensing my new energy levels keep asking for some counselling and I am noticing that my expressions are becoming more and more clearer...me asking the right questions.....
Perhaps for the first time, I experimented at home too on my skill....When we met our Amma at Rajoo's house couple of days back (she was planning to come for our home too but got settled there due to illness of Manni !!), when the topic hovered around the sunday class, I gave a live demo to my people...!! kept the three children in front of me and I told them the joke that I narrated at my training session while amma, rajoo , manni and anoo were looking at me....!! I was able to tell the story clearly and without any inhibitions and every one was smiling when the kids enjoyed the story so much and all of them laughed at the end...becoming kids....!!
How much of experimenting is possible right in our homes....We some how carry some inhibitions in getting intense with our own people....and I am proud to announce that I lost all the shyness to enact a role at an inappropriate circumstances & the needless hesitations are getting wearing out !!!
All well......so far....
Regards
suren

Transcendance 13 ::: Learnings from a Dead Doggy

Prelude :: I got the news from Anoo over phone (I have to attend the call at least from her, right ??) that her Grand mother is quite serious who lives with her periappa quite close to our house, in kodambakkam itself....She told me the news and suggested we can go and meet her in the evening....I felt like visiting her at once and took a one hour break.....!! The lady is frail and week....we may get the news any time....Will be going again in the evening by 8 PM along with anoo and madhoo.....
Dear Gowri,
Do you imagine one can learn too many lessons but still can end up a dozen of unanswered questions ? Imagine my fate who bumped upon a series of experiences today just because I could not resist an intution to go the next stage of my probe.....At last all my probe and progress to subsequent stages resulted in...... BETTER READ IT YOURSELF....
Today morning, I left Madhoo in her paatu class - we were slightly late and reached it at 11.10 AM only and I was supposed to pick her back at 12 Noon..... I normally reach back home, take some rest (what else a lazy person will do) and go once again to fetch her....Madhoo is particularly fond of my picking up her and prefer me over her mother because, Anoo is normally late in reaching the class...Be it picking up daughter from class OR reaching her own school where she works as a teacher OR to give a lift to her hubby from Railway station where he reaches tired and weary after tough day (??) at office.....Anoo is 10 minutes late - quite consistently... This is one of the sore point that I have on her as even now, inspite of my best communication skills, I am not able to make her understand the importance of punctuality and she is absolutely not guilty about utilising the IST - the grace time available any where and every where in our country....
Now, cutting my needless tongue wagging, let me come back to my home from the Music Class and on the way, I got a strong intution to visit the site of "Baba Temple" which is expected just back to my house....This was not narrated in this series but I consider it a great previlige to have this temple in closer vicinity which is a co-incidence after me visiting Shirdi roughly a month back.....and slowly turning to be his devotee.....!!
I parked my scooty in front of the site and when I glanced the plot of land (should be max 2 grounds), I could see the old house was completedly demolished AND hopefully the construction (excavation of soil) might get started soon after the debris clearance.....!! I reverentially entered the site where no one was there at that time....and very consciously keeping the right leg of mine imagining how I will be entering this place in 1 or two years...and how much the visit of temple could become part of my life and routine....
I walked slowly measuring the size of the plot and my eyes hit a well which was found at the end of the plot....the walls around it was also completely demolished...A curiousity welled up inside me to go and see the water level in the well as these days, we go for borewell...and to know the level of our water table at our residence area....When I reached closer and peeped into it, I was in for a mild shock....YES....there was a fully grown white coloured dog (with brown patches) lying flat in the water...and ironically the water was quite close to the brim......!! I stared at it for couple of seconds and immediately looked around but no one was there either at the plot or in vicinity....As a FROG WELL, I could not get struck what steps needs to be taken immediately when we have such unusual situations...I got reminded of a smiling face which I met just few seconds back....!! YES, just before entering the road where the temple site was present, I had witnessed a narrow miss of a NEEL FANACIA staff who in the last minute escaped from a minor hit that he could have had with a car...I was just behind the car and was feeling relieved as he jumped out of the way of the car which was going very fast...and looked at the face of the guy....who was too relieved from his escape...Both of us shared smiles .... and I was heading towards the temple site....
I impulsively took my scooty and reached that man who was hardly 50 metres away from the site who after a moment of confusion, recognised me and looked at me with raised eye brows...I narrated him about the dead dog and asked him what I should do.....OR where to report....
He told me that this must be handled by METRO (not just drinking water, they also is responsible for sewage water - I learnt it only today from the Name Board of the office) and told me where the office is it....
Believe me starting from this METRO office, I visited 4 Corporation offices today...each one different responsibile for different wards....and until 11.50 AM, I was going around west Mambalam area.....with a hope that I can do some thing to clear the dead body of the dog and save the water table of our place.....!! I originally thought I will make this posting bit shorter but now, I am tempted to write every detail of this experience....
YES, at the Metro office, after I explained them (Here there was some wisdom....I was explaining at Metro office the situation quite longer....and later I realised that I can be more effective just reporting "dog is dead inside a well in a plot of land....want to inform the concerned" is sufficient.....!! ) who directed me to CHennai municipality office and told me the route how to reach.....
I went to the office as told (the beauty is that I have never even seen these buildings all these days though I keep travelling in and around them so many times all these days) ...and the fellow there asked me a historic question "is the plot in this side of the road OR that side of the road?" when I gave him the road in which the plot is located.....!! YES, I learnt from him that he is responsible for the left side of the road only and the areas adjoining it...
I was through out cool....!! I asked him where I should go to report ..for which after a thought he told it could be either ward 123 or 124...and told me the locations of the two offices which are in two different sides of my resi area...Deciding to take the shortest distance first, I visited the Corporation office and there was a worker at the entrance who asked me what is it about...Hearing me, he murmured impatiently...."they are going to ask money only from you...why do you want to go up to the office "(The office was in I floor)....
I stopped and turned at him and told "Let it be so....Now I am understanding Indian Movie better sir.....!! I will report to them....let me see it for myself how they behave...after all, it will be a good proof for me to see it for myself on whether they do some thing without taking any money from me"....The man looked at me and coiled up "OK boss...you go up"...
I reached above and met a man who was sitting outside the office...appeared to be a staff..sipping his tea; hearing me, he guided me to go to an office which is not the second option given by the earlier guy.... I simply looked at him and asked patiently...."please tell me if you have any record / map to show what you are telling is true...The earlier guy was telling me to go to another office in case this area does not belong to your office...now you are saying some thing else...."....He appreciated my question and explained calmly....he literally drew the map of the junction from which the road of the temple (proposed) get started and told me that his office is scoped to be responsible only upto the main road and its left side...(my unfortunate road is in right)...
Then I shot back my next question...."How do we people know all these things..To day I have time to enquire and search for it...but otherwise ??"...He gave me answer quite responsibly....In the name board of every street which is in Yellow background (black fonts), please look for the Ward Number which is clearly written...We need to go that office only for any work to be done in terms of maintenance....This was a learning to me.....but still the address of office is not any way written in the name board.... (I myself discovered that there are at least 5 Corporation offices in walkable distance from my home....today!!)
This man - perhaps he was free - told me he will join me and have a look at the place himself...he hopped in my scooty and asked me why I am interested in this...I told him one lie and one truth....trying to be practical...
I told him I am a local resident couple of streets away (did not reveal that I am just behind the site) but the truth I told was that a Sai Baba temple is going to come up in this & I visited jut to have a look at the site....as I was a devotee...!! I also casually told him that my aim was just to report and to see how our Government is operating and I was not prepared to pay any thing... if demanded...
This person matter of factedly told me back that if it comes with in his area he will organise the clearing himself (he can very well tell this now...because he knew it was not his area....and he is not going to lose any money which is unearned any way !!); we reached the site and I found a motor cycle standing at the site....I realised they are people appointed to clear scraps / debris who were estimating the total volume of scrap material...They appeared to have seen the dead body of dog but understandably they did not care...totally focussed on estimating the total heaps of debris....with their eyes...!!!
This gentle man who accompanied me too paid a visit inside the well along with me...and condoled the death of the dog by sighting it...and told me to go to ward no.124 office and confirmed me the same with the number written below the street name...I thanked him, left him back at his office and headed towards home....He gave me a clear understanding of the process hinting me of what could happen....I had to fill up a form and submit it based on which they will do the needful...
I reached my home with a mixed feelings and thoughts...I did not mind going to another office but I was sure to shell out couple of hundred rupees (could me more also) if I had taken more initiative....!! BUT, I was also sure that the person who is working on creation of the building will any way do this....but there is a question how early he will know and take steps ??
I told Anoo the whole of the incidents, and asked her what I should do ?? She suggested me to drop going to one more office....as a pracitcalist...who did not realise the implication of a dead body inside water....perhaps, she was confident about not getting affected as we drink "metro water" and have a high class Reverse Osmosis system at home.....
The only initative I took on the dead doggy is to write an obituary in the web world which is going to get into the tonnes and tonnes of "word" debris that is getting accumulated every day...rather every second...MAY THE DOG REST IN PEACE.....after it gets identified and cremated / buried properly.....!! I have few thoughts / questions on the whole of incident...

(1) It appears that the corporation offices are stand alone....can't simple passing on of information not possible amongst them....If buying a computer for each of the office is too much costly for them, they can think of having some much cheaper communication system (I really dont know...it could be a personal messenger..who is the cheapest in India, right ??)

(2) Just in case some citizen takes any initiative to do what I wanted to do, should he pay for it ?? I am not talking the contribution that a citizen does in terms of his time, energy and the fuel of his vehicle...The way I was asked to go to different office without any emotions was very clear that they are incapable of doing any thing more than that....(they can at least offer me their phone....so that I can inform the other office....For that, they should have an index of telephone number of all the local corporation offices AND it should be easily retrievable and made available to the visitors like me....Worst case, they did not even suggest me to call the number from a telephone.....(I too did not get struck I can do it....any way, I did not carry my cell phone...in fact I did not have a single rupee of money with me...that made me very confident and straight faced)

(3) Is it the responsibility of the owner of the plot only to take some action in civic interest ?

(4) should he pay for it necessarily....in addition to the regular charges and fees that he might be paying ?
(5) Are the corporation office employees not getting paid any salary ?? what will they do if no dog die on a particular day ?? (Please do not laugh, I am really concerned how desparate they will become if they get used to such extra income on regular basis)
(6) Why can't the ONYX or NEEL METAL FANATIA asked to do such additional specific works also ? they can be compensated based on submission of proof....over and above the normal efforts required.....
(7) at least can't such contracts made with external agencies include a simple clause that they will matter of factedly report such instances themselves to the Corporation office (I mean the right one ) ? Is the implementation going to be so difficult considering the fact it is a private operator ?
(8) Will I be capable of having a quick tour around Mambalam every time when I face such incidents ? What would be my reaction / response just in case I happen to sight a dead dog during a working day OR on a day when I have some thing to do....??
(9) Did I visit so many offices out of sense of civic responsibility OR because of selfish interest ....EITHER because it was in the site of my BABA temple or closer to my house.....OR I did every thing because of the sympathy for the dog's soul ???
(10) What ever be the response for question no.9, why I did not complete the loop ? Was I craving for a particular response from anoo when I calmly narrated the whole story to her ? Did she suggest me to drop it because she felt like being with me some time at least on week days...and not liking me to get out on some thing which is not of benefit to her or our home ?
(11) India is continuously projected to be a super power of the future, will the changes that will be required to happen at the grass root level happen drastically OR it will be a gradual evolution ?? By any chance, we may end up as super power with such basic things remaining as it is also ??
(12) What is the state of the doggy's corpse right now ?? Has it started stinking OR it has been cleared already.....??
Suchoo

Moment of Bliss 16 ::: Expanding Self !!

Dear Gowri
Sadhguru says in one of his lectures that the fundamental craving for any human being is to expand......In fact the firm belief on re-births by many of us, the desire to get recognised by others - to name just a couple - are just indications of this basic craving.....!! We perhaps understand things better with live experiences.
I would like to share some thing that happened today morning....IT is a series of three events - all today morning within half hour time....all of them are basically dialogues between people - QUITE SIMPLE ONES - but capable of triggering me to compuslively write them in minutest details in this posting......This is going to be a combination of direct speech and indirect speech for better impact and understanding to you.....
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DIALOGUE 1 :-
I was sitting in the hall cross legged just after watching a CD of sadhguru....time was 11.30 AM and I was about to take Madhoo to music class ... Her cousin (Sadhoo) had stayed previous night at our home and I was supposed to leave her in her house and then leave to music class which is to start at 12 Noon. Madhoo was getting ready and was calling me loudly from kitchen and I was in meditative mood (Lazy ??) not eager to get up.....here the dialogue goes...
Madhoo ::: "Appa !!!! Appa !!!!!'
Me :::: (Shouting back) "What it is ? Tell me.....If you want some thing from me, you come to me"
Madhoo ::: "No appa !! You only have to come here... I want this water bottle from shelf...I am not able to reach it !!"
Me :::: (Again shouting back) "Try to take it yourself with the help of stool which is placed in the hall... If you still cant reach it, then call me"....
Madhoo ::: " I already tried it !! I can't reach"
Hearing this, I immediately got up telling "If you have tried already and still can't reach, here I come"....
DIALOGUE 2 :- We reach Sadhoo's home and I park the vehicle bit farther from their flat...as it was too sunny...I found a small tree near the next home in the opposite side and thought my scooty will be better off there !! As Sadhoo crossed the road and went into her home, Madhoo was waiting for me to join to go inside the house..I put the side stand in the scooty and lifted up Madhoo's small bag containing music note back..to take it along with us to the I floor of the flat. Madhoo ::"Appa, I think we can keep it in the scooty's box itself !! why to carry it all the way and bring it back....we are going to be only for few minutes inside the home"
Me :::: "it wont fit in....it is better we take it with us instead of it remaining in the open box which is available in the front side of scooty..."
Madhoo ::: GETTING REMINDED "appa....you SHOULD TRY.....dont tell things without trying......"....Smiling at me....
Me :::: Looking straight into her eyes and enjoying her connecting ability, "Very Good !!" I dutifully obeyed...opened the scooty box and tried to keep the bag...it did not fit in.....I looked at back and told with a smile "Some times, you should not waste time even in trying....when you are very sure things will not happen.....Do you understand"...
Madhoo....Laughs understanding my shot given back quickly and I was quite proud at the whole conversation...by itself, this could have got qualified to be posted....BUT...
Dialogue 3 ::::
There is a Ford Car which was parked close to my scooty in the opposite direction...that guy wanted to take a U turn...His wife along with kid was seen along with him in the front seat itself and I noticed him soon after the dialogue 2 above....We were walking towards the flat by now but I immediately stopped seeing him and when my eyes met him, I found him quite friendly and smiling....I infact turned back towards my scooty to keep it some where to help him....
This person must have watched me for couple of minutes earier too - involved in parking the vehicle and talking some thing to a little girl...both of them laughing at some joke.....and might have got amused....HE WAS IN GOOD MOOD....that is the point here....!!
me :::: "Sorry...Just a minute sir...I will keep it bit farther"
Stranger :::: "No no sir.....not required; I WILL TRY MYSELF WITHOUT DISTURBING YOU"
At this point, I did not get the point but Madhoo was yelling at me......
Madhoo :::: " Appa Appa....see, HUNDRED YEARS......he is talking about trying"...
Both of us feverishly laugh and seeing us, not sure if he understood any thing, the family at car too smiled...and moved off in first gear....
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It is quite nice when some one who is too proud about his abilities to get connected ... at ease with new people / get connected with old incidents / get connected with a solution in a situation taking a clue from another similar situation - in abstract sense.... Wont I feel elated and blissful when my own daughter makes a grand start....at a time when even I was not sharp enough to observe what she connected ??
Blissfully yours
suchoo

"Love All"

Dear
My earlier postings were made on sunday and by co-incidence I happened to post three pieces during last week end in all my three series.....which is not a co-incidence !! Also, these days the experiences are so much bountiful that I can type out a posting in each of the three series on every day.....without much thought and difficulty as there are too many things that I am becoming aware of.....Its just a question of time availability I am pouring out only weekly once.... Some times it is also nice to hold on and wait for the situation, right ??
Last week at office had been really hectic BUT also enriching -- on two days I reached home catching a cab at 11 PM and I was hyper active with ever growing needs coming from people at office...superiors, peers as well as reportees...There had been counselling sessions both self iniatited as well as few requested by the receiver....not to forget the one to one dialogue that I had in the board room pulling my own boss....and gently told him a grave mistake that he did...which he immediately realised and told he will amend it...(it is a silly mistake only which resulted in some communication gap.....any silly mistake is a grave one, right ??)
Now with the rich experience of 5 working days, I thought I had too many things to be posted today but it was an anti climax...Today since morning, there had been few experiences which are poetic and really noteworthy...capable of being captured in my series of postings AS WELL AS writing poem....!!
When there are too many things to be done, have you observed that destiny winks at you......?? Some times, I need to have a round of bargain with my wonderful family to sit in front of my computer at home but that was not needed today as five minutes back, they have left some where - a relative's house and not expected until 7 PM at least.... I consider this bonus of 5 hours as a extra ordinary gift and wish to keep glued to the screen and fingers dancing on the key board....only pray our Government authorities for uninterrupted supply of electricity...... I dont consider phone calls as a disturbance / distraction, as these days I never attend any phone calls at home on my own.... YES....any one calling as to be attended by my wife and I am sure in those 2 % cases, I will be handed over the receiver after she extends her courtesies with the other person.....!! Today, for the next 5 hours, I dont intend to touch the phone receiver and I wish even if Manmohan Singh and MK wants to check with me on some thing, they can call me after 7 PM...... They have to manage things by themselves....after all they must evolve, isn't it ??
By the by, here I start my musings for the day after boasting too much about myself....but let me candidly clarify that I do have some point to be so boastful....perhaps my following postings may reveal some of them....just because, I am realising that there is a limit to communication skill...The extend to which you are going to be touched by my postings today is dependent on too many factors....my telling ability, your reading speed and the amount of distraction that you have when you read this, your grasping ability and of course your opinion formed about me....
My feelings as they are right now can never be transmitted to anyone who reads this and as like this game of life, I am just playing with words....
Now comes the next clarification....Why do I do all this ??
writing poems in midnights (forgot to tell, my Suzharchi poem....lamenting on week cycles is some thing I posted at our canteen yesterday......to suit the "friday mood"....and it got some good feedbacks and rapport quite "inadvertant" ly.....some times accidents are pleasant); writing pages and pages of thoughts and emotions; talking non stop to people around with full of energy and humour.....and craving to improve it further by going to special classes; looking intently nice lectures delivered by my Guru and trying to observe his style and delivery technique much more carefully these days & getting melted with every little thing that happens to me and around me...........; inspiring the team members with little courtesies & trying to make them understand things in better perspective......WHY AT ALL one needs to kill himself with his ever improving expressions.....??
Some time back, I read sadhguru's answer to a particular question on polygamy....watch out this answer was from a spiritual leader....Let me try to quote his spontaneous views on this subject....
" It is really possible to love many people at same time.....For any human being, it is not impractical thing OR never a question of technically not possible to love many of the opposite sex..... In fact I love all the girls of the planet...not just the girls but also I am in deep love with all the human beings existing in this world.... Traditionally, they made a system called marriage only because, they realised that they can never get filled up / satisfied by having an intimate relationship with as many people as it is possible for that person....It is just that they realised that it is wise to symbollically shower the intimate love on one individual and try to explore on the relationship with the same person by getting associated with him / her with a commitment..... It is just a question of realising the grand truth and trying to be practical"
Mind boggling, isn't it ?? Let me end this particular note quite abruptly and get started on my second posting...which is about a moment of bliss.....
I express out of my happiness and enjoy the holiness of sharing .... I am keeping it confidential in this blog site with just one individual reading it because, I really get satisified with the feedbacks of this one person.....and take the pulse of how I can reach others too from these feedbacks ....This is more than sufficient.....!!
My expressions are getting sharper and sharper / subtler and subtler only with this basic wisdom operating at the background...I only pray this "Vaarthai thavam" continue for my life...until I need it.... more than others need it....!! The moment when I feel "its enough", I am sure, I can love all with my silence too without any dissappointments or frustrations....!!
Suchoo

Budha Poornima --- in a Buddhu's perspective

Dear Gowri
Think today (or is it tomorrow) is Budha Poornima.....I have chosen to post this at 11.50 PM because, either I will start or finish it on this auspicious and sacred day for any spiritual seeker...since I am not too sure of the exact day...... Being a Buddhu & also accidentally got caught into a spiritual path / school, I do have every right (and duty too) to write my thoughts and feelings on this subject.....!!
Now, I want to start this with a flashback...exactly 4 years back - I reached home bit early on the same day than usual....to go some where for a special meeting.... Did I say, I reached home.....No No...it was just that I left early from office taking permission and reached the venue of a special meeting which is ofcourse quite close to our home....Raghavendra Marriage Hall...A sathsangh was organised by Isha with our Guru, Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev....who was in chennai by co incidence at chennai on this auspicious day...
Why to call this an auspicious day....Just for the purpose of continuity, though you might be knowing it already, let me state it....This is the day in which Gauthama, the Budha was born....who is being identified as an extra ordinary spiritual leader of all times.... Our Guru always speaks very high about this gentleman who lived in this planet long long back....and I remember he spoke about him even on this particular sathsangh....(let me touch upon it later...after the satsangh is over....OK ?? Hush ....... Guru is speaking ...No noise now.....!!)
This is perhaps the first and the last time I had the opportunity to meet him on this auspicious day - I mean , that his presence in chennai is extremely rare to coincide exactly with this day....I have attended the Guru Pooja meditation in the subsequent year too without his physical presence at Mahalingapuram but this particular sathsangh was significant....
He spoke passionately about the importance of the day and every one in spiritual path to get reminded & get into a reverential attitude towards the person who is lifting them in spiritual plane....!! He told his own experience about the meeting with his Guru - approx 300 years back.....

YES.... Sadhguru (I mean the terminology) - as he explains means a person who has become a Guru without any lineage or tradition and of course he did not have any Guru in this life time....He was actually explaining the living experience and transmission of all that is worth to be known from his Guru, Shri Palani Swamigal, couple of births back when he was born as Shiva Yogi.... Yes, either he did not say his original name as it was irrelevant OR perhaps he never had any particular name as there was no need, he told that people called him as "shiva yogi" during that birth and seeing his desparate attempts in meditation to reach "there", his Guru (who was again known as Palani Swamigal because, he hails from Palani....) walked towards him and just touched him with his stalk in his hand....This was in fact the first time that they met each other and no words transpired between them and this meeting too in his own words, lasted for few hours.... He got into a realised state with this meeting and with the touch of the wooden stalk which was in the hand of his Guru....
When he told this part, he literally got emotional and his whole body curved bending forward with a lament that his Guru did not even physically touch him with His finger but it was just sufficient for him to get what he needed....!! He literally relived the total experience with his hands folded and eyes closed....and voice slightly differently modulated.....!! He continued saying gently that all of us have a live Guru who is spending so much time physically with him...and pleaded us to make use of the opportunity during his present life.....
I was crying silently (as usual) as I was perceiving each and every word of his... with my eyes, ears and my entire body in a responding state and posture.......!!!!! I left after the sathsangh silently towards the door without speaking to any one...got the prasadam distributed by one of the volunteer and when I reached the outside of mandapam, it was drizzling... I wore the helmet with my eyes still moist and just like a buffallo, I reached home in my motor cycle....which was quite close by... (again the prasadam episode is some thing I can not forget...I actually was heading towards the door not eager to join the group of people heading towards the "plate" of Laddu....the boy who was distributing, actually came forward towards me, and literally stopped me and handed it over with a typical Isha respect....and when I looked at his face with tears in my eyes, he was smiling at me, while his hand was raised towards me with Prasadam....looking into my eye balls... I had never met him before that / since then also)
Today, I am getting reminded of this and feeling quite proud and relieved that still I am having so much of reverence for my Guru though I have practically walked out of one of the aspects of the life in terms of volunteering.... But let me also add, that I am becoming a volunteer at office....I can see a distinct difference and the air of affection and love around me..at my office....and I know many of my wonderful team members adore me ...and consider me as a "larger than life" person.....!! There is really no need for the special protection that Isha volunteering gave me as I have seen glimpses of this love, affection and open ness in the situation that I operate....substantially at office though not so mcuh at home and social circles...!!
Now, let me come to the speciality of this day...and Budha....and how he is a super star amongst his creed....as described by Sadhguru..... Perhaps he was the only spiritual master who had more than 10000 realised disciples around him when he lived......!! While there were many advocating and reaching people with Samadhi (or getting drunk with emotions) as the path which is a way to Bhakthi Yoga, the greatest example of Gnana Yoga was Gauthama.....and he was more looked at during his times as a scientist...He smartly handed the people around him with lot of maturity and our Guru says, that his Sutras are mind boggling and extremely potent though they appear like simple algebraic formulae....!!
With the rich experience bestowed on me by the circumstances and the people around me, I pray Gauthama, The Budha and Sadhguru that I am able to reach my true potential as a human being.....and crave not to get into my typical "snake and ladder" game in life....!! I am already seeing great potential in me...though, just in glimpses.....which I had not taken care to even look at...all these years....if not nurturing them properly.....!!
I wish not to get down from the roller coaster of this life....and before my over bulged belly droops down and my muscles becomes flabby....before my head which is Black and White now turns vice versa....and before Doctor pronounces me a list of medicines to be taken compulsorily, let me systematically improve all the aspects about me....and be able to impact IF NOT influence people around me with my ever growing leadership skills......!!
Gurubyo Namaha....
suchoo

Making of Managers - 11 ::: Taking right decisions at right time !!

Prelude :: Gowri, needless to say there is going to be a lot of postings about my experiences and learnings in the Public speaking course that I am undergoing...But as a true isha-vian, I dont intend to spoil the wonderful self experiences by vomiting every inch of details that I undergo in the class !! It is infact becoming obligatory on my part to record my subtle learnings during this course - which are not directly taught by the faculty - in my series of postings...This particular one fits very nicely into this series....Making of Managers....!! Here you go....
Dear
On the first day I happened to take the centre seat of one of the middle rows as I normally do in any such opportunities to sit in group.....I had two gentleman sitting in front of me talking continously amongst themselves until the faculty arrived on the stage...Sorry, it was not that both of them were talking, it was just one (He introduced himself as Mr.Jain....when he came to the dias for self introduction) giving sermons to his friend - neighbour in chaste Hindi on the necessity of soft skills improvement and making him prepared for a great sessions ahead in the course....! I wondered for a while if the class is structured such that we have a personalised teacher who will sit next to us and get into the syllabus...but unfortunately (or fortunately) no one was near me...and this talkative gentleman did not bother to talk to any others in the group and was glued to his friend who was nodding his head vigourously to every word uttered by Mr.Jain.... He was really overwhelmed with the knowledge of his friend, that was quite sure for me as I could see the side face of both these gentleman.
During the intro, we were supposed to tell briefly about ourselves and why we came for this course and was expected to finish our talk with a question intended to make people easy...on what is our favourite dish....While many of the participants responded with "chicken" for the last question with all smiles in their faces (shall we make HEN as our national bird ?? Peacock is getting too old and killing it is any way an offence...!!), I had no qualms to tell in front of mike that my favourite is Jeeramilagu Rasam and Paruppu thugaiyal....(incidentally, half hour back I had this combination for today's Lunch !!), Here came Mr.Jain who though properly answered all other questions, gave a long lecture on the last question....that his parents have told him that food is meant for nutrition and not for taste and he considers any person with a "long tongue" as a cheap personality....and ended up this brief lecture by stating that he likes all "saathvic" food because he is a Jain and a "vegetarian"....(I did not get annoyed because he digged me personally...but was actually sympathesing him for not able to comprehend on the question...the best answer in his own case could have been...."I dont have particular preferences..." isn't it ??)
There was another instance when we were asked to calmly think and write down what is our percentage of confidence level in public speaking....and tell it in open...To which I sincerely told like many of the participants that I am at 60 %.... The voice of this gentleman was quite lone in proudly announcing that he is at 100 %.....for which the faculty clapped and admired his confidence...at that point of time (mystery unveiled little later...please).
This person carried a sense of superiority about him and was not able to stop his temptation to talk to his friend-neighbour even when the faculty was speaking so magnetic and nicely...I had to touch his shoulder gently to quiten him a little bit so that I can focus on the better speech that was getting delivered...
The MD casually announced that from the next week, since there will be lot of group activity, the total batch of around 40 will be split up into two - one will be handled by "amma" and another by him....That is, the second half of the session every sunday...which comes after a break...
Believe me, I was secretly hoping not to fall in the same group of this gentleman but did not carry this thought farther than this...As I missed the second session last sunday, today I was back to the hall 15 minutes earlier trying to get acclimatized to the environment and trying to feel at home like all others who had one extra group session than myself (this is the spirit of "competition" !!). I was surprised to see the friend of Mr.Jain sitting alone and in fact next to me by co-incidence...we exchanged our names and shook our hands and I casually asked him where his friend was...
This gentleman - who appears very simple and gullible - told with lot of surprise and awe that the MD had called Mr.Jain for a personal meeting and told him that a person like him may not get any thing from such a class which is not targetted to person of his caliber....! This man's voice chocked in admiration as the MD had returned back the cheque of Mr.Jain to him and told him that the institute does not deserve to certify a master-speaker like him !!
Suddenly I got reminded of another small incident which was much more clearer to me....Anoo told me 10 days back that the cheque given by me around 1 month back was never debitted to our bank account...and I spontaneously called the institute to ascertain if they missed to deposit it...The MD's daughter spoke in a calm voice and informed me that its their policy to deposit the cheques only after the first session is over....and assured & thanked me for my initiative...
Now, these are methods of veterans of any field...they are so proactive that they design every little thing to ensure the overall effectiveness....starting from choosing the participants...A man like Mr.Jain would have definitely made people quite inferior and would have been bent on stamping on all of the lesser mortals his supreme personality...
After all this class and course is meant to lift us up...and personalities like this man will be a misfit...and I admired the institute lot more when I heard about his "nice" elimination from the course.....
A decision taken at right time - I am sure - will benefit every one....and as a true professional, we should strive to be pro-active with our antennas always up for possible problems and challenges....!! I will remember this small episode for ever....
By the by, I was tempted to write a mail to the email id of the institute quite crisply on this...but controlled myself that it was not needed.....!! I will not even mention about this even if I had the chance....There is really no need for impressing any one and it is better I learn to swallow my lessons and internalise them instead of diluting them with lot of words...
Krishnaarpanam...
suchoo

Moments of Bliss 15 ::: Re-assurance at the ability to laugh at myself

Prelude :: As the title of this posting gives a faint idea on the content, this could very well fit into Transcendance series too...But realising that I have had such experiences of laughing at myself in the past, I added the word "re-assurance" in the title & convinced myself that it is much more apt to include this experience in Moments of Bliss series...See, how sincere we can be even in trivial things, right ???
Dear Gowri
This is again about my new Public Speaking course...I clarified right on the day when I paid my fees if its ok to miss a class as I had a scheduled trip outside Madras for 1 full week - I was assured that there will be compensating class and it should not be a problem.
I was back from Munnar this friday morning and was slightly depressed with the thoughts about the pendancies at Office and the missed class hanging around my head....feeling like going to office on one of these days (sat or sunday) to clear off the mails at least so that I can get started with the new week lot more better.... I had a word with my colleague who clarified that there was no plan for any one to work on sat / sunday (it is crisis time for one of my teams and they worked in week ends for the past two weeks) as our Manager suggested them to take a break.... This spoilt my plans and yesterday morning, I was sitting helplessly in the hall of our home talking to Anoo in a bit depressed tone about the whole farce in our middle class lives.... I was asking her quite seriously if we can move to Isha right away putting our daughter in the wonderful home school they have within the Ashram premises...and she can become a teacher in the same home school.... I am any way longing to become a teacher at their yoga classes and all the silly details can always be worked out revolving around this....!! During this visit, Anoo too was overwhelmed with the life at Isha and that gave me some courage to get this crap going for close to 1 hour....and I was seriously trying to cajole her to leave her needless hesitation and reluctance to do things that we want to do !! As expected, she was brushing me off labelling me as impractical....(am I ?) and was giving reasons why it can' tbe done... ?? Encouraged by her responses, I was actually going into a healthy arguement for the solace that it gave me on a idle morning....with me having no interest to do any thing productive for the next 2 days...In fact, I was sensing that a new depression spell was in the offing !!
Just then a courier reached home by around 11 Am and handed over the intimation letter from the institute which told that there is a compensation class at 6 PM in the evening.....It started nicely as "Mr......, We missed you last sunday".....and gave a summary of what was covered in the previous session requesting me to join today at least to know more and get updated and online...
It was quite a pleasant surprise as I thought this intimation letter would have been sent to my office address (perhaps as an email) and I was wanting to skip this session as I was in no mood to get in touch with them myself to know the timings of the compensation class.....
This letter was sufficient to spring me into action (see how brittle I am !!) and I got reminded of the home work that I was supposed to do before going to the class. In fact, I was supposed to do a small talk for 2 and half minutes on a problem (any thing of my choice) , analysis of it and appeal to the audience on what we want them to do......We were told that we will have such practise session strewed all over the 8 - 10 weeks of the class and this was the maiden opportunity as it was announced on the first class which I attended....
I was also supposed to read few of the things in the study material and I got started locking myself in our computer room....and started wondering on the"problem" for the talking session... I stumbled upon the subject of environmental degradation about which I had good exposure during the "Green Hands" days...and talking about the solution of planting trees.....to solve it at a cheap and direct manner...! I had talked in around 10 schools during the project days and considering that time available was just 4 - 5 hours, I started jotting down the points in the required structure....
I went on rehearsing the sentences...literally trying to by-heart the whole of the talk, clocking the time that I take when I read the whole thing out, rephrasing and modifying few areas with question marks and exclamations...for audience appeal....I should say that I had a power packed speech in front of me....& got reminded that a speech well prepared is 90 % well delivered....
In fact, Let me also remind that I had kept improvising myself on this speech when I spoke in various schools....and was able to deliver the content very effectively both in English and Tamil...during the project days....and was quite confident that I will do a great impact in the evening session...There was no doubt it and I kept visualising myself doing a wonderful speech again and again until 4.30 PM....literally not doing any thing else at home...!!
The inevitable time came at the class, yesterday evening, when the MD's wife asked the 4 of us (the absentees) to make our speech coming in front of the team...I walked quite confidently as my peers did not come prepared for this talking session in this compensation class...!! (poor souls, how unthoughtful !!)
As I started with my opener statement, the energy level was quite low and I needed a correction right at that stage by the faculty...and I virtually stumbled 3 or 4 times during the delivery of the well prepared speech....and shamelessly looked at my notes to get the speech going...While the MD's wife sitting amongst the three other members, nodding her head vigourously to encourage me, I kept stumbling and searching for words.....which was extremely ackward in front of the three other members who were "lesser mortals" as per my standards based on the limited observation...
At the end of the talk, I had a heartly laugh and told the MD's wife that I really "goofed up" and "perhaps it is because of the fact that I over-prepared"...As a true professional, she had some comforting words for me and made me feel easy as I reached my chair.... I could see that the other three who did not come prepared was able to speak some thing coherently (inspite of poor language) about some social problem....in extempored manner...UNLIKE me and my preparation....and they did not carry their grammer too much while they expressed.... I heartily clapped my hands at the message they conveyed though the delivery was not made properly....with lot more modesty and honesty...
When I came out of the class, I felt myself really lighter with this failure...and was seriously analysing the reasons for the goof ups..... Think one important reason (in addition to the main reason that I get carried away too much with my imaginations about my self quite often), for my goof up is that I tried to memorize the sentences inspite of having the ability to deliver them extempored !! the natural flair was completely lost in this process of mugging up...and my confidence was taken away trying to do some thing (mugging up) which I forgot when I did last time....(perhaps during my school days ???)...Another reason for the debacle could be because, I lost touch with the subject matter which I was quite familiar with....2 years back.... The emotional value is completely lost inside me today on this subject matter and no wonder, I did not sound quite expressive on punctuations which I carefully added while writing script ?? Didn't they say that knowledge is the fundamental for good delivery...and communication skill is just supposed to build on the knowledge....I realise it lot more better now....!!
Hope I will do much better next time....>!!
I am giving below the famous 2 and half minute speech that I prepared yesterday.....which I goofed up ultimately....This needs to be in the webworld for ever......!!
Krishnaarpanam
suchoo
Our Duty towards Planet Earth

There was a study undertaken by United Nations Organization on Environmental degradation; This Study was undertaken 10 – 15 years back.
One of the observations made was that 60 % of the Land Area in India could become desertified in next 25 years. The word “desertification” means that so much land will become unfit for cultivation and will become barren & useless !! Particularly in Tamil nadu we have just 17 % Forest Cover which is quite alarming compared to national average of 23.5 %. Environmentalists say the ideal Forest Cover for a nation should be at least 33 %.

The main reasons for this poor forest cover in our state – as all of us know - is reckless deforestation & rapid urbanization.

Already we have started seeing the impact of this – isn’t it ?
Water scarcity, So much heat during summer & Too many threatening stories on “Global Warming” to name a few;
With an aim to increase our economic prosperity we have meddled too much with ecological balance & we have started paying price for the same.

We need to take remedial actions - on war footing - in various spheres but the cheapest and simplest one is to plant trees – which is some thing that we can start right away…. We cannot do much about the pollution & urbanization AND it may not be wise to slow down our Industrial Growth in any manner.

We are close to 6 crore people at Tamil Nadu, if all of us resolve to plant one tree sapling this year & another one during next year – and take care of them for 2 – 3 years, the Forest Cover of our state will improve from the current 17 % to 30 % in next 10 – 15 years.
Is this too difficult for us to do?

In terms of making an impact on demographic conditions of Planet Earth, an initiative taken in one state of a country may appear to be too inadequate;
But by doing this in all earnestness, we may motivate the rest of the states in India to replicate our initiative which may ultimately inspire the whole world !!

At this point of time , it is not only a responsibility but also is an opportunity & an unique previlege for us to do some thing about this.
Because, if we fail to do it now, perhaps the opportunity will be irretrievably lost !! Why don’t we leave a better world for our children & the future generations ?

I read a quote recently in a book ….it goes like this
"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago, the second best time is now !!"
Shall we get started ?? (a winning smile at the audience was planned !! Hmm.....I did just this part well....)

Transcendance - 12 ::: Learnings things better !!

Prelude ::: My earlier posting in this series (A decade long wedlock) is incomplete...that is, I am supposed to continue it with a much longer one on the 10 years of married life..as the prelude became bit too much in the earlier posting.....!! Its not that I have forgotten it - it will be posted shortly.....
Dear Gowri
I haven't written much about the new Public Speaking Course that I have enrolled in which I attended the second class today evening. The class normally runs for 8 - 10 sundays - 9 AM to 1 PM in the noon & since I missed last sunday class (the second session), I was asked to come for a compensatory class today. Though the class is normally conducted at Hotel Palmgrove, today - being a compensation class meant for absentees was conducted at their office cum residence at Adyar.
These are thorough professionals of second generation - the classes were started approx 45 years back by the father of the current MD who runs the show supported by his resourceful wife who compliments him nicely. The MD's mother - an interesting lady - who is a little over 60 years old - also add to the faculty in addition to these two - who has been associated with these self improvement classes since her Husband promoted it...meaning that she has close to 40 years of experience in the field....
This vibrant lady who appeared bit comical for me last sunday when I went for the first class as she had gold every where in her body.... All the 10 fingers had 4 to 5 rings each until the first joint of the finger & she was wearing practically 3 to 4 dozens of chains (I will call them as "chains" only) in her neck - I found her supporting the administrative aspects of the class - collecting money and issuing study materials before the class started...
Just then, the MD started the first session with a flawless english and kept us totally focussed for close to 1 & half hours, introduced the faculty in detail for which both the ladies waved their hands from behind...and the intro session ended with experience sharing of the people who had done the class in earlier batch (they start a new program every 1st week of alternative months....)....I was reminded of Isha's techniques and kept comparing & getting connected to Isha until this point...
The MD announced that after a small break his mother (he through out called her as "amma" though the lecture was in English) will take over the class.... He called her from the mike quite informally, asking her to take the mike for which she matter-of factedly told she needs to go to rest room.... All of us waited for her to join us...and the dutiful son kept giving intro about her mother until she reached him....he told us to just obey his "amma" though she may appear doing stupid things...and how ever awkward we all felt to repeat what was asked to be done....!!
A new excitement started building up inside me when the grand mother reached the stage and told us if any one of us mind to accept her as our mother....and whether she can consider all of us as her children...without any hesitation we all nodded and I particularly took note of her simple and plain English...which was having no professional standards...
Then the lady started and kept us raptured with lot of utterly silly things...she shouted at some of us, called one of us for a open fight with her in tamil (she was literally telling the person "keesiduven" in high pitch making many of us roar in laughter seeing the plight of the other person !!)...and started doing lot of craps with her whole body shaking and with strange gestures with her hands and face.....which all of us started repeating with lot of enthusiasm though initially we felt ackward....!! The whole purpose of this session was to shed our inhibitions and I felt that it worked miraculously....in a totally non-isha way.... !!
After all , I realised any thing that has survived for 4 decades must have an element of workability / practicability in it & thats why she is able to afford to hang so much of gold around her....At the end of the first day class at 1 PM noon, all of us did not fail to say a bye to "amma" who was sitting exhausted in a chair at the back of the class....with her hyper energy displayed and sprayed on all of us....!!
Now, as some one who is embarking on this as a career, I felt a great reverance for this old lady who has added so much colour to her son's professionalism....and being a integral part of the class. Now I realised much better why the alumnis - when they spoke during the intro session did not forget to mention their gratitude for "amma" and kept thanking her... At the end of the first session itself, I got into a mental state that I just forgot all the gold that this old lady was wearing but was able to identify with the soul of this grand lady....who remains as the foundation of the class that I have joined....
Now, I would like to add one more instance on my class learnings which justifies the title of this posting....During the First sunday class, the MD casually narrated an incident on the way to the class which would have lead to an accident - a two wheeler riding straight at the car and had our MD not applied brakes and was not alert, the boy in the two wheeler would have died...He was trying to tell a point that he did not even get angry with the young man and just told him "paarthu poppa...!!" . This came from him calmly without shooting up his BP was because he had the ability to take a full control over himself in extreme situations...!!
As I have heard of similar incidents narrated at Isha circuit quite often & infact have the opportunity (& Lucky!! ) to handle myself too in some rare situations properly, this did not make much ripples inside me though I heard him intently....
In today's compensation class, I had with me a gentleman who narrated an incident that happened at his office today that could have normally put him in high temper but getting reminded of this incident narrated by the MD, he was able to handle the situation much better.... Now, this was a surprise revealation to me as today happens to be the 13th day from the first class and this person too missed last sunday class just like me...and that is why he is there for the compensation class.
Today's class was handled by the wife of the MD who was too pleased with this man's narration and was taken aback with the realisation of the fact when I told her this fact quite impulsively....I was appreciating this person quite irresistably that this has sunk so deeply within him that he was able to get reminded after close to 2 weeks....!!
NOw this is the beauty of the impacts that external situation make on us...I am not talking about total transformations which is quite rare and such phenomena goes beyong the world of words and language;
Some times the same incident does create different impacts on different people based on their past history and what they are exposed to...and the way they internalise things that happen to them / what they observe from others is a truely interesting pheonomenon !! While I took the original incident lightly, today in front of computer, I am priding myself on being able to appreciate this type of subtle learning much better though few incidents cease to be of particular significance to us on the first hand...!!
Am I making myself clearer ?? Perhaps I could be better understood when you stumble upon some learning yourself which was unintended & unexpected....
Eagerly looking forward for more of such learnings and becoming more humble with the weight of such experiences.....in the 7 more sundays...starting from tomorrow !!
Krishnaarpanam...
suchoo

** A contrast comparison **

ISRO placed all the 10 satellites, in a single launch, successfully in the orbit. The previous record was 8 satellites in one launch and that was done before two years by Russia. ISRO is a huge success story and it makes us all feel proud of it. In my view, the success of ISRO should be attributed to its setup in that it is away from the clutches of the Govt and is a sort of independent body (though not totally independent). When we look at a few organisations, which are more under the Govt - the result is more appalling. DRDO - the lesser we talk about it, the better !! Lets take the latest news on the Arjun Battle tank to substantiate the reasoning. 35 years after the project was approved, we still have five major defects. From the original project cost of Rs 15.5 crore, we, so far, have spent 305.6 crore !!

Army has said that the tank suffers from low accuracy and consistency, chipping of gun barrels, shearing of top rollers and failure of hydro pneumatic units (data from "The Hindu"). Our Defence Minister states, "The rectification of defects and performance of tanks are being closely monitored". How long?? Army states that the tank has low accuracy - which means, for eg, if Mambalam is targetted we would end up firing at Tambaram !!

** New Invention ! **

"Rise in global prices of food grains is because the Indian middle class has attained a level of prosperity and they have started consuming more resulting in the world wide shortage of foodgrains." ....... After great research work, Mr. Bush, who incidentally happens to be the President of USA, has found out this reasoning. I recommend that he be given this year's Nobel Prize for Economics !!

A new series in the offing !!

Prelude ::: Quoting myself in a posting made couple of days back.....for better clarity
"Kallikkaatu Idhihaasam
I spent close to 2 hours in this 24 hours re-reading one of the master pieces of Vairamuthu...the writer-turned poet....This novel exploded on me and I was wondering how enriched and clear this person's mind is.....
.....I thought I will at least write a detailed commentary on this novel...with accurate translations for few poetic descriptions.....with my maximum vocabulary.....describing the speciality of the novel to a non-reader or some one who does not know him....The second one is possible...if only, I place my mind on it... I have already placed my mind on it.... A commentary on a Native Ithihaasam may be in the offing before the end of 2008.....!!"

Dear Gowri
Do you remember Steven Covey's Time Quadrants - with special reference to Second Time Quadrant....? "Things which are important but not urgent"..... By pushing things that we want to do to happen "before the end of 2008", there is a great risk of the same never getting done....
As I continued the novel in the past two days, I realized that it is worth embarking on a project on this novel...I do have plans to buy "Karuvaachi Kaaviyam" but thats later....Now let me make some structured commentaries on this first master piece of Vairamuthu....
The purpose of this posting is to set the premises for the project..... The novel is close to 400 pages and it actually deserves & is capable of producing 800 pages commentary / analyses from me...Considering the fact I do have a 10 hours office & there is a risk in losing the only reader of mine in this blogsite, I intend to contain myself and attempt some thing like 8 to 10 chapters as I wrote "Walk towards the peak"....
Irrespective of whether you have read this novel or not, my mission in this connection is to give a reader a vicarious pleasure as if he had read this novel by himself.... I do have some extended goals around this base statement made....
First is that, the reader - like me - will get enriched by knowing lot about the culture and traditions of the part of land (Kallikkaadu) in which the story revolves around... I was talking to my brother recently on the magnetism about T.Janakiraman and his famous novels....He expressed a view that since we belong to his culture (Tanjore & Brahmins), we are able to relish his novels better...If only we knew carnatic music, we could have appreciated this great writer even more as T.J sprays his music expertise in most of his novels. This particular discussion was some thing that I was thinking about the past two days.... An alien culture of Tamil Nadu which is also poverty ridden is made quite familiar now to me as I read through this novel....Isn't it a contradiction to our earlier discussion and the (seemingly) conclusion that we drew upon ?? So the narrating style can inject even some thing so far unfamiliar into us deeply if they have necessary skill set.... (now I dont undermine TJ any way...that he did not "inject" music inside us....he must have had his own limits....considering that we are Gnana Shuunyams)
Secondly, being a poet basically, Vairamuthu had provided abundant situations where we can relish his power over the language. I intend to capture as much as possible in a particular posting...may be in two or three postings....He has quoted lot of local proverbs through his characters (he calls it "solvam" which by itself a local word to mean proverb..) and their dialogues & also has used few local slangs...I wish to record the subtle learnings that these aspects provide us...
Thirdly, I could see the powerful manner in which we can visualise few scenes as though we are seeing a cinema...Just an example here, the Hero's two bullocks (his pets) are taken away by money lenders..and our hero - an old man is bruding about their fate in the night time unable to sleep.....He gets a jolt to hear their familiar voices outside his home and rushes to see them...Let me translate the exact words as how our hero sees his bullocks which had escaped from the ruffians and had reached back faithfully to their affectionate master.... "One bull (MayilakkaaLai) is found with torn off the rope to which it was tied....while the other one (sevalakkaaLai) had pulled out the base-stick in which its rope was tied up...Both of them looked as if they told him ..."yes, sir, we have come"
{Now I realise that to do a better job of his translation, I should improvise more but....I dont want to stop this project for any excuses...how ever genuine it is...By the by, the intention is not to make a scholarly translation but to spray how I felt when I read the novel}
Now the beauty of aforesaid piece is that, the narrator could have chosen to be superficial in his description...but when I read this line in Tamil, I actually saw the scene with two bulls using their respective strength and will power to release themselves from the tied up ropes...!!
Fourthly, the humour sense that Vairamuth has within himself, has nicely come up in the novel...and I want to group them and show them as one posting.... Some of it is can be visualised though we dont belong to his culture.....
Fifthly, I would like to present the micro level characterisations and the techniques used by Vairamuthu to help us to visualise his various characters of the novel....Honestly, I have some surprise why no one attempted to make a film out of this story.....it got released in 2001 as it has tremendous scope for making a good movie when we have half a dozen Tamil Fanatics calling themselves close to native Tamil Nadu.. Perhaps they may have struggle in deciding upon how to infuse sex and vulgarity in this wonderful novel where even a mating scene is narrated with a powerful visualisation possibility.... !! Let me reserve this for the main series ....
Last but not the least, I will be starting up the whole series only after narrating the whole of the story - in condensed form.... so that the reader (I mean, the reader of my series) can really settle down for the next question in his mind....WHY this novel is special....We need to make the WHAT clear, first right ?? So the first posting is about a brief intro on the preface written by Vairamuthu & also the mainline story ....
Now, coming back to the Title of this posting, I am beginning to understand that there is too much scope in every thing around us....whether we read a novel or enjoy a morning walk or we decide to do nothing.... !! I only wish and pray Almighty that I dont cool off for the next one month...so that this series.....will become a reality...Like all my other musings, this too is mainly written to satisfy my expression syndrome and I can helplessly observe a big longing getting more and more intense to get out of this spree of expression...
With my active involvement in this blog and my venting off, I can experience stillness during most part of the day when there is no need to talk BUT when I start interacting, I can see that the apetite to express takes over which some times enervate me complete... I wish to become a master communicator capable of speaking just adequate...!! Moderation is a way of life...right ?? OR as Gowri nicely puts it,...... "averaging out" may appear quite normal when we dont have much of standard deviation.....!!
Regards
suchoo

Moments of Bliss 13 - Contd.....

Gowri...this could be too boring for you....I swear... Its a typical diary that I used to write when I maintain it manually...felt like doing it at least for one day....You may choose to skip it......
Hi
Let me get into seratum of events / incidents as it happened trying to record the facts as crisply as possible....
(a) Adventure with my old motor cycle and seeing the beauty within a ruffian's heart
My Motor Cycle got into a minor problem these days...the key meant for Petrol is quite difficult to turn from Main-->Reserve....and it got quite worsened today when I wanted to turn it...Incidentally I had gone to office and since I wanted to go to Tambaram to stay with Amma, I took half day leave and was quite sure I am going to have this problem as the petrol in reserve could never be utilised...I tried to get it done with a local shop close to office but the motor cycle stopped within a Kilo metre as there had been some problem with the Petrol pipe inside the lock and needed replacement....I originally thought it was a starting problem and kept trying to keep kicking the starter in hot sun and decided to wait at a automible shop on the main road....As the shop owner was not there, I was asked to wait by his neighbour for few minutes...and never imagined that half hour was elapsed as I was deep into "The Fountainhead"....then, sensing the purposeless ness, I pulled off the mo bike to another shop few metres away where a shrewd boy detected the problem exactly...and asked me to get the spare from a shop which he told is a kilo metre away....He also suggested me to go in Share Auto which never came, so I took an auto for to and fro and got the spare...Instead of just the tube, I thought he needed the whole of petrol lock and had bought it for close to Rs.220...Infact I was puzzled as the boy told it will cost max 60 only....When I reached back the shop, the boy clarified me that it was a clear mistake and I had to go once again...Just then, another boy in 20s....reached the shop in his bike (yamaha) who is perhaps the shop boy's friend....When I was bit hesitant to hire an auto once again, the shop boy suggested his friend to help me..for which he was reluctant telling his vehicle was in "reserve" .... With sun above the head, feeling quite hungry & tired... and already late to reach home (it was around 3.30 PM already), I touched the shoulder of the friend boy and pleaded his help....literlally pushing him towards the bike....I noticed that his bike appeared brand new and was well maintained ...when we moved towards the shop....after getting the right spare to be obtained, when I got back into the bike again, I casually asked this boy if it was a new bike....He proudly told nodded negatively...(UNTIL NOW he was bit rude and showed clearly that he was not a willing partner !!). With genuine appreciation, I told him that the vehicle not only looks bright and nice but also is quite smooth while riding....for which he - while driving - turned back and showed up all his teeth - with a big smile - that his bike is like his "kozhandai...." Suddenly I realised that every one seems to have a soft spot and some thing nice / proud about himself and if only we can stir it up....knowingly or unknowingly.........
(b) The psychological strength my amma derived from me and my presence
I almost forgot when my amma became sick..I mean really sick...before this...perhaps a decade back.....OR before that.....She gave me a call at 12 o clock noon while I was at office...asking if it is possible for me to come the next day - that is today....for a night stay....When I repeatedly asked what is the reason sensing some local squabble, she told she has temperature....and complained that she has abnormal body pain....She also had developed rashes all over her face and body and she got into a doubt if it is some pox variety (ultimately it was not so....after I reached, the Doctor did not confirm what it is but it subsided within 24 hours..before I came back today)....I immediately informed the office and left to Kpuram after some adventure with my motor bike....She had temparature of around 103...and needed my massaging....which I dutifully did for close to 1 hour..... It was so beautiful that she recovered with the sheer pyschological support and to some extend physical support from me ... and I was watching through out the 24 hours on how lonely this poor lady feels with not so healthy atmosphere at home...I also visited a Bhaba temple 5 KM away from my home and got her some special vibhoothi today morning which made her balance 1 % too alright... I also had a blasting session with her on her needless revisits to pasts and creating self pity....I am covering it seperately....While my mouth spoke, I just got involved with the content of my message more than my 100 %....as I thought it will do her some good and put her back in rails.....considering that she is going to be all alone again....Well that is being covered later...
(c) Kallikkaatu Idhihaasam
I spent close to 2 hours in this 24 hours re-reading one of the master pieces of Vairamuthu...the writer-turned poet....When I accidentally noticed the date in the preface of this novel, it appears he has written it in 2001....and I was quite surprised...I was in the next house of Vairamuthu in the same year at Trustpuram...before we got a flat for ourself....We were in a side portion of an independent house & when we go to open terrace, we see Kavignar walking all alone and writing at his open terrace which is very closely visible...to us...
In fact it is quite at audible distance and looks like Anoo had once talked to him too....after he smiled at her in a friendly manner....He asked her name and guessed if she was the only daughter to her parents...quite right !! After having words of courtesy, it appears he has invited us to his home which we never did....during that 1 year of staying at Trustpuram...Even now, I keep seeing him in the circular park Kodambakkam....and this particular novel and its sequel (which I am yet to read) - which was named as "karuvaachi kaaviyam" has a resemblance of his child hood and the characters of his own rural up bringings....
This novel exploded on me and I was wondering how enriched and clear this person's mind is.....The novel is simply amazing and I started wondering if I could take up project on this novel.....like....trying to translate it in English.... It could be viewed as absurd by those who feel the strength of the novel is the local slang and the culture of the interior of the TN state.....BUT my point is different... I was wondering for few minutes if I can bring the innocence and the turmoil in English by developing some translation on the same theme....and being silent on the cultural aspects..... Since I was not too sure, I thought I will at least write a detailed commentary on this novel...with accurate translations for few poetic descriptions.....with my maximum vocabulary.....describing the speciality of the novel to a non-reader or some one who does not know him....The second one is possible...if only, I place my mind on it... I have already placed my mind on it.... A commentary on a Native Ithihaasam may be in the offing before the end of 2008.....!!
(d) on my early morning practises in the open air at 6 AM after a wonderful open air bath
One strong temptation to me to visit our parent's place is the bath in the open air with a high tech shower fetching the fresh water from well directly before it reaches the overhead tank....and though I slept only by around 12 midnight....(I had been talking to my office on some urgent priorities with some one in the night shift), I could get up at 4.30 AM without any prompt.....!! I was sitting with my eyes closed for close to half hour and then reached out the back yard for a wonderful bath ..... which energised me fully and I was in upbeat mood....I reached the open terrace at around 6 AM sharp and did my breathing practises...with complete focus.... My pranayam and the new practise (Shambavi Maha Mudra) are these days always on and off...with me never doing it daily for 1 complete week and at the same time not leaving it out totally....
After a long time, I was doing it with full air getting into the lungs and it was so effective to experience the stillness...and I was out of the world until around 8 AM....staying there unwilling to come down....
(e) On my visit to a local Sai Baba temple today morning
These days, I am becoming slowly a devotee of Shirdi Sai Baba....(t00)... I never had much information about this gentleman except seeing his famous photo and stickers....and the visit to Shirdi made some impact on me...which is indescribable.. These days, as I walk down or travel in road, when I casually see his photo in some name board of a shop OR behind an auto, I keep staring it for few extra seconds reverentially with total focus....It has also happened some times, that intuitively I look at some street corners for a Baba photo ...and am able to spot it out some where close ... (it happened on last sunday...when I was walking in a street, suddenly wishing to do an experiment...turned all the four directions but unsuccessful...A maruti omni came in front of me...and when it crossed me, I felt like looking it and found Baba's photo in the rear glass...and with a smile, I started walking).
Now this Baba had a direct disciple to whom he (authentic information available in few books) transmitted the healing abilities....with vibuthi....This direct disciple reached Shirdi Baba at the age of seven and stayed with him until the latter's samadhi...and started wandering all over..reaching chennai ..and had his samadhi at a place near chitlapaakam....He is called as Viboothi Bhaba...He was physically available till 1980s and this sunday they are celebrating his 25 years of samadhi day.....!! I had visited this temple while in school days once a while but never knew its significance...To this place I went a fortnight back...where it is said he (That is the Viboothi Baba) visits even now...once a while...It is evidenced with scattered viboothi all over the floor...it is a common sight and the authorities of the temple gather this and distribute to the devottees...This direct disciple had announced a worldly person who lives in chromepet as his heir...who is quite a known person for our parents... He wears the typical attire of Bhaba and appears very normal. My mother got me introduced to him during the visit a fortnight back...
This man is some body I had wanted to make a posting but could not do....he is extremely simple..aged around 60 years and speaks quite normally... He does not show off as a God Man and clearly admits that he is being used as a tool by viboothi bhaba....!! he is married but no kids and the way he prays to his Guru with Viboothi in his hand before giving to the visitors, make us feel that he is praying for us...and any way will not exploit us....!!
I visited him and spent some time in this temple.....and was speaking to this man....for some time....Really different types of God Men around....!! He invited me for the Aaradhanai festival this sunday morning...for which I obliged...only later I realised my Public Speaking class is supposed to start this sunday...!! what a coincidence.....(some one is laughing aloud seeing my connecting abilities & imaginations.....!!)
(f) My socialising and communication during 24 hours....
I met a couple with their son in 10th standard who were our close friends...on the way to viboothi baba temple... It was so wonderful that the boy whom I met when he was 6 year old boy still remembered me...and while talkiing with them, I really felt that I was in full control..and keeping the conversation just perfect... I was not getting diluted with this socialising ...and at the same time, I made them feel its the same old suchoo....!! Perhaps it could be too difficult to put this in words...what I mean by "dilution" but, it is a reality for me...that my meditative state gets really a beating when I "indulge: too much.... The point is that it did not happen today....and when I kicked the starter of my mobike, it was so evident for me....
Further, during the interactions with my sisters who visited home and the neices, I was able to be extremely aware even when I cracked my usual jokes....and the voice was quite powerful and co-operative when I wanted to modulate...(is it becoming too much ??)
When my amma started bragging on some story of 1960, I waited for a while with an expressionless face and when I had an opportunity, I lashed her to make her understand that this is sheer stupidity to keep reliving bitter experiences....I think perhaps for the first time, she understood me when I speak like this...and perhaps did not continue further on the topic but I could also see that she was not hurt with my words... I passionately told her that to pamper her self pity is quite easy for me to do but I am not willing to do it....and made her realise that the current situation is much better for her than those re-lived past...and it is quite a stupid thing to remain in old days....!! I was through out determined not to lose my temper and that could be one important reason she turned cheerful before I left home..... Doing the needed things some time becomes necessary than going by people's wants....!!
(g) My absent mindedness & not getting impacted.....
It is quite amusing to me how I forget things and never get into problems because of that....!! it happened more than once today and I had to re-visit places (including the Saibaba Temple where I had kept my "kallikkaatu ithihaasam" novel and started moving towards home....!!), going back to Camp Road once again for getting the coffee powder and going in search of the pass book of my poor mother....!! to name the prominent ones...
I had to travel around 10 km extra in the hot hot sun..but what an acceptable mind I have...I never complained nor bruded about it....Perhaps this absent minded ness exist with me like a shadow because I am so compassionate to it....
(h) Return Journey to home
While returning back to home leaving parent's place by 3 PM, I could enjoy the hand mind co-ordination while driving and I was handling the bike extremely gracefully in the patches of the road....telling myself a confirmed statement..."all in the mind"....!! I saw a person lying in the new kathipaara bridge with a bleeding forehead quite unconscious (could be dead too) with very few people gathering around the accident spot...felt sorry for him and his family for a split second..
..and getting reminded of the constant insecurity that is always there in our lives.....!!
regards
suchoo