** Thamizhan !! **

Our GREAT Anbumani Ramdoss has done it again !!! He has ordered a 22.5% of quota for SC&STs in Medical and BDS colleges. This did not exist before. "Thamizhan", so far, has taken so many initiatives that subsequently takes mammoth proportions and ultimately destructs this nation..... this is one more to our 'proud' cap !!! "Thamizhan yendru sollada - Thalai Kunindhu Nillada" !!

All the destructive elements that haunts our Nation today were first started by Tamilians. Hatred against other language and other state people first started in TN. "Separatism" - first started in TN !! "Corruption" in mammoth levels first started in TN. Quota beyond 50% first started in TN... the list is endless.

** Resolution ?? **

Last week, in one of the Muslim conventions held in Uttar Pradesh, India - the Ulemahs, have condemned terrorism. From what I read in the newspaper, The Hindu, it is clear that just a resolution was passed condemning terrorism and most of the speakers spoke in length on the 'atrocities' being met out to the 'minorities' and in condemning the Govt and the policies. None of the speaker, reportedly, spoke against terrorism or Jihad. Possibly they just passed a resolution without having spoken a word against the atrocities that are being committed in the name of "Jihad". And unfortunately, all the newspaper claim this as a major step forward !!

As long as we have a Govt in the centre that fears talking against Jihad and taking strict measures against Terrorists - its going to be a loss-loss situation for the nation. Govt fears that talking against terrorism will be construed as words against Muslims !! Doesn't such a stand implicate ALL the Muslims as terrorists?? When will we have people at helm who see issues as issues and not as 'Vote banks' ??

** Sujatha **

Famous tamil writer Sujatha passed away yesterday (27 Feb 08). What a great loss to the Tamil literature and Tamil society?? There is no one in the horizon to touch standards near to that of Sujatha, leaving alone taking his palce. May his soul rest in peace.

** BUSH Jr Jr **

Bush Ka Beta..... Bush's Son .... :)

Transcendance - 8 ::: Up from the Downhill

Dear All
I was going through the series that I wrote approx 4 months back in the title "Walk towards the Peak".....and was vividly getting reminded of those magical moments that I experienced and the flow with which I had captured those moments in this series of postings.....In a way, I do have serious plans this year too to visit Kedar once again.... all alone....& I would personally cherish this particular series as some thing that has happened wonderful through me more than by me.....!!

After completing this series of postings, I had got into a spree of "expression" of my thoughts and feelings in special context to my official environment where most of us spend most part of waking hours - and had started three different series....which remains without any additions for close to a month as of now..... !!

It is indeed quite funny to see my plight...... unable to get out of depression spell that was self inflicted....and has almost ripped me apart and my self confidence for close to a month now.... !! From being recognised as a bright prospect of the organisation that I am employed right now during the appraisal discussion during Jan 2008, it is quite a pitiable state that I have landed myself during the course of the current month....and I am right now in a quite dreadful mood of positioning myself to receive diagrammetically opposite feedback at the end of first half 2008...(we have half yearly appraisals at our organisation)

Leaving aside the perception of people to whom I report to at office, in my own assessment it has been a humiliating period and infact I am a bit ashamed at my lack of consistency...and how shallow & brittle I am ... as a person....!! Being endowed with sufficient level of IQ, Skills set and circumstances to optimally use them, it is really a pathetic state and I only wish I have reached my Lowest.... already.....!! It is quite dreadful to think that I can afford to slide even more from what ever situation I am right now...at office - which ofcourse oozes itself at home and at social spheres too....!!

It is not out of any compulsion that I am posting this.....and it is not that I am ashamed to glimpse through my earlier postings made by me.... in which I had nicely recorded at my HIGHs during the past 4 months..... I could see with all clarity that there was an upsurge in my awareness levels and all I did was to dutifully record them in a permanent chronicle... and I am quite convinced that I am quite sincere in my thoughts and expressions in those series....!! There are few incidents where I would have sounded egoistic eliciting a gentle warning from my comrade of my "excesses"...but the truth remains that I was.....& I did not want to hide it.....After all this is my diary and there was nothing written in imagination....& hallucination.....!!

With better appreciation of the words written by Gowri ("every thing averages out.....in due course"....or some thing to this effect ?), I realise a need to play cool in this recovery process that is bound to happen from now on.....and ensure that I am able to be controlled outside inspite of my HIGHs inside...which can alone guarantee my inward growth..... more than career growth...!!

Here I start my regular postings on Transcendance.....I must be posting at least two postings every week from now on.... I dont find any reason OR justification to have any postings in the other two series ("Manager in the Making" and "Moments of Bliss") until and unless I transcend my basic limitations..... !! At the outset, it is really nice to feel humbled..... Pray that I really become so even after I get going after this bad impasse.... & have some really deserving postings made in the other two series as well...at least after a couple of months....

Krishnaarpanam.... (Being written with lot more feeling and involvment than how I used to write this until now....!!)

suchoo

** INVASION **

The king had a fairly good and large territory to govern. One fine day, a group of rebels, numbering to around 600 decided to attack. They grouped together with a well laid out strategy. They chose one district - blocked all roads leading to the territory and carefully selected the targets!! They killed the guards in-charge of the armoury and looted all the arms and ammunitions. Around 15 died on the King's die - NOT a single death on the rebels side. A two hours operation and a rousing success.

If you thought that the above story should have happened during previous century or in one of those strife struck African nation - you are grossly wrong. This happened just before two days in Orissa, India. A group of around 600 Naxals attacked the Nayagarh district in Orissa, attacked Police Stations and Armouries of the district. NOT a token of resistance was offered.

Two days after the attack - with the Nation's entire Govt machinery behind (including IAF helicopters & bombers), there hasn't been much success in the battle against the Naxals. Govt sources say that 40% of Arms and ammunitions has been recovered so far - but knowing well about Govt responses, I highly doubt those figures.

Naxalism is rearing its ugly head in a big way in India. Its high time that the Govt acts sternly against Naxalism. But the crux of the Naxal growth, in my view, is poverty and poor infrastructure facilities to the people in rural areas.

** The Sinking Road **

Yes... its true !! Dont be surprised !! One of the roads in Chennai keeps sinking (not the entire stretch but at patches). If you dont trust my words - please do make a visit to Chennai and I will take you to that very road to see that for yourself !! This started happening a few months before on one patch of the road. Around five to six meteres stretch of the road, suddenly sunk by around two feet from the surface. Since then, this phenomenon is being witnessed on quite a few places on this stretch of the road.

Hey.. NO... it is not because of any super natural power - it is just due to the the power of the "contractor" - the person who had built a sewerage line beneath this road. At one end of the road, there is a sewerage plant and hence the sewerage line beneath this stretch of the road is a bit huge and it was constructed before two or three years. Probably the contractor had paid too much of bribe and was not able to provide a quality structure and hence this structure is giving way. This being a very busy road with lot of heavy vehicles plying on a daily basis only has made the matter worse.

A poor quality structure giving way is nothing new. But the measures taken by local authorities to fix the issue is something you can never imagine, thats the icing on the cake. One would expect that the structure beneath the road surface to be fixed first and then the road be laid ... right? But, those sane measures have been given a GO - silently, the surface, wherever its sunk is being filled with sand and stones, brought to the normal road level and being laid with a fresh layer of tar road !! Bingo !! By doing such stupid cover-up operations, they are only laying the foundation for an even greater danger. God Bless us !!

** Thanks to BSNL **

We remained out of telephone link for quite a long time. I made a habit of visiting the local BSNL office almost daily to get our lines restored - only to be told that there is some major cable break and people are working on it. After the first week, the lines were restored only to go down again after two days. Today, after so many days, our telephone link still remains out of service - but to my great surprise, I see that our Broad Band link is working !! The lines may be down - but we have to keep paying the rent - that is the true meaning of "looting" !!

Transcendance - 8 ::: Integrity "restored"

Dear

One important reason that had eroded my personal esteem is my inability to keep the commitments that I make to myself.....It would become such a long story full of pathos with very less successful episodes if I give an account of the number of occassions I had taken a goal & left the same in air... In fact at a point of time, I was scared to take any goals because I was so confident that I will not be able to keep it...

With special reference to getting up early in the morning, I have erred on this hundreds of time but the irony is that I never lost the craving to get up quite early (as early as 4 AM) and to my practises without any time pressure or curtailing the same....It is really a shame that I am neither able to live up to my standard nor have been compromising on my craving.....the result is that my self image / self esteem has eroded substantially.... & I infact I got immuned to any self improvement goals.... This is one reason why I create so much noise on "transcendance" or "moments of bliss" which may appear to others to be very trivial and so natural for any human being to do....

Now coming to this specific instance, I got up bit late as usual on last friday - perhaps by around 6 AM only and did not have enought time to cover my Breathing exercises full session.... I bruded for a second (it has become nano-second these days.....) & then decided quite impulsively that I will compensate this in the evening after reaching home from office...Normally I reach home only by around 9 PM and considering, most of the days, I am quite hungry, I have never ventured to do my practises in the evening until now....either in the morning or skip...had been my routine in my current shift timings...

It so happened by around 5 PM in the evening, Anoo called up and made an usual appeal that we can go to HSB for dinner...which I readily agreed though I had a small nagging at my heart... Honestly I did not want to upset her as for such a long period (more than a week, you know) we had never gone to hotel and my lapse cannot be a reason for her unhappiness.... But, as it turned out to be, there was some emergency situation at office by 6.30 PM and it got stretched till 10 PM....I literally forgot the commitment I gave & waiting Anoo...and I woke up to reality in a jerk only at 10 PM....Fully realising the consequences, I called her up and told that I am on the way to home and told her to eat something at home ... & I needed nothing....I could sense the fire in her breath...and without much words, I kept back the receiver without having the guts to face her fury...

On the way back to home, I told myself - this type of opportunity happens only quite rarely... & I decided to make use of this opportunity to keep up my promise to myself.... I reached home and with lot of pranks, made both the mother and daughter laugh....& made them sleep after listening to the inevitable sermons...then sat for my meditation and practises which stretched till exactly 12 oo midnight....

IT gave me an extra ordinary feeling to live up to my promise and... more importantly, I had developed a ripple of thought which I had during my pranayam session.... which these days have become a pattern for getting a new theme for my poems....After the session, I sat in front of computer fully fresh and charged to write it down but some thing happened and the computer wont get started ......

Quite unfazed, I pulled a scribble pad and wrote down my latest of latest poem at say 12.30 AM...midnight...which was titled "suzharchi".... The beauty of this poem is that, I never thought for any words .... or for word alignment.... I got a similar experience only 2 - 3 times earlier, like writing Nisaptham, Thagappan manasu & niruthiyam - I am just giving the list of my earlier poems...

The same will be posted shortly in the blog..... & to be very honest, it was one of the proud moment in which I "transcended" my own karma of breaking promises to myself & also a great moment of bliss of writing a poem spontaneously....!!

suchoo