"All in One".......

Dear Gowri
I could not find a better title than this for the current posting....This could be a historic posting that I have ever made because I am posting this soon after an experience with a hurry to vent out my exact state of mind...before I start distorting it with my own thoughts and interpretations......Further, I do have lot of things to do for next few hours and cannot allow myself to get stucked up with this great experience which made me tasted some thing which is relevant and apt for all the three series that I am currently writing (Transcendance, Managers in Making & Moment of Bliss)...Let me justify this part later but it is important for you to get sufficiently reminded that this could be a long posting......and may appear like making mountain out of the molehole.....and you may relegate this to your liesure hour as I am eager to get your specific feedback on this posting alone from you.....(I do appreciate the agreement between us that you will give feedback only to poems and not for the postings that we make....which could put us in never ending loop....)
Well, Today I called up the Head-Man at the Public Speaking class to check with him if I can join tomorrow's session as I thought a second listening could do a world of good for me to understand the few subtle things that I missed out earlier.....though I was quite intent and eager....!! I need to expand a little bit here that I have hands on experience on this belated understanding of subtle things with Kaml Films, Isha Classes...and (God Bless) I had the sanity to check with this man before going to the same class again naturally as I used to go to Kamal Film or Isha Class....!!
I first spoke to his wife and after exchanging courtesies, she reminded me of the Grammer class that she is starting next sat at her home.....I had asked for details and had spoken to her some time back (when I visited their home for preparing for culturals) for the purpose of Anoo...(Just wanted to brush up the fundamentals for her as she is developing a complex when she sits to "teach" our little devil - well, I should add, there were some embarassing moments for her when both of them came to me for spelling / meaning / grammer usage when they were in confllict of the correct grammer & english....Unfortunately, most of the times, the little devil is proving her mother that she is better amongst the two....)
So, when I called up, reminding on the date of new classes was quite natural for which I gave a fitting response to her.... (avasyam !!). You cant' call me wrong or indecent in the manner I put forth my request if by any chance I can attend the class sitting in the last row...and if they allow it in their process / institute....I got a rather professional reply from her to check with her hubby and immediately gave his cell number.
I spoke to (one of my) guru and he instantly recognised me....and asked me lot of questions quite cheerfully....!! And then, I gradually put forth my request, he told a decisive NO.....telling me it could be boring for me....!!! I was not the one to give up, I asked him by any chance I had missed out some thing, I wanted to catch it up...and did not mind to add a tinge of humour that I will be sitting quitely in the last row (for that matter, during our sessions, we always had few people in back benches who missed / remained absent on some of their classes in previous batches...and it was normal to have 4 - 5 people in his class more than the current batch strength.. I never imagined all of them would be cases where he personally monitors and invites....and tracks the attendances of them !!
He clearly told me that it is not advisable to re-attend the class and re-confirmed to me that there will not be much learning value to listen to him once again......!! I thanked him with a smile and excused myself.....and disconnected the phone line....
I had mixed feelings and confused thoughts about this simple episode...Undisputably I was the best student of his batch and had great value in the batch by triggering people around me and making the sessions very participative.....!! I had groomed a (pretty) girl to compere the whole of cultural events on the last day when I was personally requested by this man to organise the whole thing......!! and last but not the least, the manner in which they handed over the certificate (mine came in between in the bunch....I could clearly see that he put it as a last one and finishing all others, he gave it after telling a few words about me.....)... Within few seconds from the subtle sense of dissappointment that I had (about which I never wrote any series of postings), I could see that I was able to smile at myself taking a lesson out of it....
Is it not a moment of Transcendance ? I clearly realise that there is a big difference in each and every transaction that we have with people around us (the ones whom we love as well as one whom we hate)....and it is important to entertain thoughts / requests based on merits of the case......!! (ironically, the tomorrow's session is on Transaction Analysis...Try Google)
Further, I clearly realised, if my vision is to make it really big as a Trainer - considering that I will be one of the aged trainer with minimum experience in the field - I need to conserve my energy a little bit and keep focussing on the priorities of the day...Imagine if there are going to be more back benchers than the front benches...Who will pay the Hotel Bill for the Conference Hall ?
So, this was also quite a relevant experience for me in "making of Managers" title...

But, I also see that some thing could be done slightly different about such requests and predicaments...if we dont take passionate financial goals for ourselves in what ever we do...!! I am eager to make myself available to lot more people than whom I will cover for financial considerations...While I realise the importance of having a regular income, I must be able to customize a life that will serve few people who are interested in their self improvement.....Now, I dont want to even think about the details as I type it down....Most of my talks at office circuit in front of my team are extempored these days...While the team gathers, I scribble down the points to be covered , the opener and concluding "bulls eye" statements....and humour touches....!!
So, as it comes by, I can easily fit a plan of mission to suit my vision...Until then, let me do my today's job...and forget this incident..
After all, getting out the juice effectively, what is the point holding the dry flesh....??
suchoo
ps:- It is really a moment of bliss for me to record this within 30 minutes of happening of the incident...Krishnaarpanam as always...