Transcendance - 3 ::: Becoming aware is too scary !!

Hi All

In this series, where I intended to capture all the subtle awareness and any simple upward movement trying to hit the unknown dimension, I expected that there will not be too many postings.....!! But to my own surprise, I found some thing to write for the third time within a week of the creation of this series posting.....

Normally people around me consider that I am quite a powerful communicator....and especially compliment me for the care I take to make my point clearer....I ensure that I use my eye ball movements, smile, hands, nodding of the head, movement of my lips (more than what is actually required).....quite judiciously so that the message that I would like to communicate clearly reaches the intended receipient....

Some times, I do feel tired when I use too many words to explain, but when I am on good form, I enjoy the power packed statements that I make.....and pride myself on conserving my energy.....(but there is an irony ere....when I am in good form, there's not much a problem if I ooze out some energy but this is always a paradox !!!)

I have been watching quite gleefully that my official mails have become very crisp now and I weed out the needless add ons and extra information from the mail...and also lavishly bold and colour the words to make the point clear....It may take some time for the team to appreciate these subtle changes as they have lot of work to do and I am not going to dream that they appreciate my little changes so quick..

Now coming to this posting, I am at times getting bewildered at the number of mistakes that happen in writing emails and even during verbal communication....Even today, there were couple of mails back to me from one of the team member in the distribution list that I have left some one to be included....!! further, a particular mail sent by me, when I looked again, had some missing word....

The worse thing that happened today is that, in a particular mail to few of the team members, in the name of being curt, I have missed one whole sentence hoping that they can read it with the help of the adjoining lines.....!! It was too much for them to grasp and seeing the manner the two team members (who should have roared in laughter seeing my malice) were seriously giving me unexpected response, I realised two things....(1) they are too sincere to me and really in high spiritis; (2) they are yet to come to my plane...What else to do, in such situation than to dilute the messages so that they can understand ?? (I actually made it like a case stude, trying to send them the same mail with the missed out - quite conscious, you know- line typed now in RED and explaining them the humour involved....here they are smiling.....and appreciating.....!!)

There was one more instance that happened today when I spotted a guy from IT was attending a problem reported by me early in the morning in a computer of one of my team member (a female). I casually walked up to him and shared few words to know how long he may need to resolve the issue....I had to ask this question as my team member was standing beside the computer waiting for him to complete the diagnosis and solve the problem....

While he was responding to me, I casually made this historic statement "at least, though IT was quite slow, she was working some thing until now....Now, you have taken over the system too...How long she can stand like this....?? "..... within seconds, all of us, the IT guy, the girl, me and some of my team members were roaring in laughter at the possibile interpretation of the statement made.....and I was correcting myself "by slowness, I meant only the system...."

No body cursed me as it was clarified immediately...what if I end up making such statements through out the day...without realising what those statements could mean to the involved people....?? without the wonderful team around me appreciating my errors with humour sense.....??

Now, what is the moral....of this posting...in a typical traditional way to close any long communication......?? "The only way to communicate is to take extra ordinary care & the only way to remain unaffected by the communication gaps is to be ready & alert on the failures / wrong interpretations AND add a pinch of humour in our own lives and people around...as a safeguard...." How's my formula...??? after all the so called "wrong" interpretation gets originated only with our utterances, right ?? its better to take responsibility for people's reactions too....when we communicate....

If it becomes too much for us, it is better to shut up.....OR to put it positively, I feel like seeing the depth of this (communication gaps) until I find this interesting and I am able to be sportive....Let me go to the root of it so that I dont suffer when I become silent...which is going to happen quite soon

regards

suren