Making of Managers 12 ::: I continue to evolve....

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I had narrated some thing on the last week's class and the specific absence of a loud mouthed gentleman in the subsequent classes....The topic was so overwhelming that I did not share the specific learnings AND also my improvisations over the previous two classes.
When the time came for some public speaking (which all of us did....after the first session when the theory part of it was handled), I did quite well and got some nice feedbacks from people around me.... I could meet others eyes, smile quite often, was quite emphatic when I argued for a point, used my hands quite well and most importantly ensured that my voice and message was heard by all present....
I also gave some feedback at the end of the class for a young boy who reached me and asked for feedback about his performance.... I could sense the craving to improve too much in him...and when he prompted when others were speaking, I told him we will talk later.... I gave him some crisp feedback...for which he appeared quite grateful...When I walked out of the hall, I really sensed that I was becoming like a partner of the Faculty in raising the morale level of participants ... without trying to be over smart like Mr.Jain....and in fact without even our Guru there knowing any thing about my such initiatives...It was a great session.
There were tremendous opportunities during the course of last week.... I took a session at office, I had an important & difficult official meeting at the Plant where I go for fortnightly meeting with the higher ups....(where I was able to manage a firing / scolding session to the best of my communications), I created an opportunity in our own team meeting on thursday to talk for 15 minutes about HOW TO fill up appraisal form which is round the corner...which requires telling them the need and then going into details....I could sense the pin drop silence when I spoke and enjoyed the roaring laughter when I cracked some joke.....There was also a meeting with our MD on the tough meeting that I had and he was empathatic on the manner I was treated and he expressed some words giving lot of confidence to me in terms of my future role....!!

During the training on email handling, I rehearsed and cracked a joke for the first time in my life and I delivered it perfectly which generated a roar of laughter....!! I was so alert that I waited until the laughter got subsided...and told the moral of the joke which brought about another round of laughter.... I was feeling the flow of thoughts much more coherent in the session and was at my best in handling the experienced people also.....very much like my earlier sessions when I handled junior team members... In fact I felt at ease to have these experienced people as I could go at my full speed and spotted only nodding heads..that they are following what I am telling....and without any hesitation, they participated in discussions and questioning me without any inhibitions (no tough questions came...may be, its just that I know every thing !!!! - I got raving feedbacks from many....including some people whom I know and in touch....(looks like some of the participants reported to them and they were found talking about me for "45 continuous minutes"....). One of my own team member who is normally quite calm joining this session, gave a raving feedback telling that during lunch time (break from session), some of the participants were telling that I was like an "external trainer"....!!! See, this is a paradox of the world !!
While I took the signature in attendance sheet of the participants (20 members), I also distributed the feedback forms and casually noticed (and got shocked) that the first one - a girl - was wearing a ring in her finger which was Shirdi Baba.... !! I was exhausted at 10 PM after the session but also relieved.....and particularly got delighted at this omen that has become quite a regular feature these days.....(Even just now, when I visited Anoo's periappa's house to have a look at her ailing paati, after sitting with the grand old lady for close to one hour, I moved to the next room where their daughter (anoo's cousin) had given birth to a child...I sat there for 10 minutes and when I lifted me up from the kneeled down position from the cradle, had to take support on the cot...and my hand got laid on a particular book...I casually looked at the open page of the book on which I was resting....It was Sai sat charitham...the english edition.....with His photo appearing at the corner of the page......)
Now, at office, lot of team members sensing my new energy levels keep asking for some counselling and I am noticing that my expressions are becoming more and more clearer...me asking the right questions.....
Perhaps for the first time, I experimented at home too on my skill....When we met our Amma at Rajoo's house couple of days back (she was planning to come for our home too but got settled there due to illness of Manni !!), when the topic hovered around the sunday class, I gave a live demo to my people...!! kept the three children in front of me and I told them the joke that I narrated at my training session while amma, rajoo , manni and anoo were looking at me....!! I was able to tell the story clearly and without any inhibitions and every one was smiling when the kids enjoyed the story so much and all of them laughed at the end...becoming kids....!!
How much of experimenting is possible right in our homes....We some how carry some inhibitions in getting intense with our own people....and I am proud to announce that I lost all the shyness to enact a role at an inappropriate circumstances & the needless hesitations are getting wearing out !!!
All well......so far....
Regards
suren