Budha Poornima --- in a Buddhu's perspective

Dear Gowri
Think today (or is it tomorrow) is Budha Poornima.....I have chosen to post this at 11.50 PM because, either I will start or finish it on this auspicious and sacred day for any spiritual seeker...since I am not too sure of the exact day...... Being a Buddhu & also accidentally got caught into a spiritual path / school, I do have every right (and duty too) to write my thoughts and feelings on this subject.....!!
Now, I want to start this with a flashback...exactly 4 years back - I reached home bit early on the same day than usual....to go some where for a special meeting.... Did I say, I reached home.....No No...it was just that I left early from office taking permission and reached the venue of a special meeting which is ofcourse quite close to our home....Raghavendra Marriage Hall...A sathsangh was organised by Isha with our Guru, Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev....who was in chennai by co incidence at chennai on this auspicious day...
Why to call this an auspicious day....Just for the purpose of continuity, though you might be knowing it already, let me state it....This is the day in which Gauthama, the Budha was born....who is being identified as an extra ordinary spiritual leader of all times.... Our Guru always speaks very high about this gentleman who lived in this planet long long back....and I remember he spoke about him even on this particular sathsangh....(let me touch upon it later...after the satsangh is over....OK ?? Hush ....... Guru is speaking ...No noise now.....!!)
This is perhaps the first and the last time I had the opportunity to meet him on this auspicious day - I mean , that his presence in chennai is extremely rare to coincide exactly with this day....I have attended the Guru Pooja meditation in the subsequent year too without his physical presence at Mahalingapuram but this particular sathsangh was significant....
He spoke passionately about the importance of the day and every one in spiritual path to get reminded & get into a reverential attitude towards the person who is lifting them in spiritual plane....!! He told his own experience about the meeting with his Guru - approx 300 years back.....

YES.... Sadhguru (I mean the terminology) - as he explains means a person who has become a Guru without any lineage or tradition and of course he did not have any Guru in this life time....He was actually explaining the living experience and transmission of all that is worth to be known from his Guru, Shri Palani Swamigal, couple of births back when he was born as Shiva Yogi.... Yes, either he did not say his original name as it was irrelevant OR perhaps he never had any particular name as there was no need, he told that people called him as "shiva yogi" during that birth and seeing his desparate attempts in meditation to reach "there", his Guru (who was again known as Palani Swamigal because, he hails from Palani....) walked towards him and just touched him with his stalk in his hand....This was in fact the first time that they met each other and no words transpired between them and this meeting too in his own words, lasted for few hours.... He got into a realised state with this meeting and with the touch of the wooden stalk which was in the hand of his Guru....
When he told this part, he literally got emotional and his whole body curved bending forward with a lament that his Guru did not even physically touch him with His finger but it was just sufficient for him to get what he needed....!! He literally relived the total experience with his hands folded and eyes closed....and voice slightly differently modulated.....!! He continued saying gently that all of us have a live Guru who is spending so much time physically with him...and pleaded us to make use of the opportunity during his present life.....
I was crying silently (as usual) as I was perceiving each and every word of his... with my eyes, ears and my entire body in a responding state and posture.......!!!!! I left after the sathsangh silently towards the door without speaking to any one...got the prasadam distributed by one of the volunteer and when I reached the outside of mandapam, it was drizzling... I wore the helmet with my eyes still moist and just like a buffallo, I reached home in my motor cycle....which was quite close by... (again the prasadam episode is some thing I can not forget...I actually was heading towards the door not eager to join the group of people heading towards the "plate" of Laddu....the boy who was distributing, actually came forward towards me, and literally stopped me and handed it over with a typical Isha respect....and when I looked at his face with tears in my eyes, he was smiling at me, while his hand was raised towards me with Prasadam....looking into my eye balls... I had never met him before that / since then also)
Today, I am getting reminded of this and feeling quite proud and relieved that still I am having so much of reverence for my Guru though I have practically walked out of one of the aspects of the life in terms of volunteering.... But let me also add, that I am becoming a volunteer at office....I can see a distinct difference and the air of affection and love around me..at my office....and I know many of my wonderful team members adore me ...and consider me as a "larger than life" person.....!! There is really no need for the special protection that Isha volunteering gave me as I have seen glimpses of this love, affection and open ness in the situation that I operate....substantially at office though not so mcuh at home and social circles...!!
Now, let me come to the speciality of this day...and Budha....and how he is a super star amongst his creed....as described by Sadhguru..... Perhaps he was the only spiritual master who had more than 10000 realised disciples around him when he lived......!! While there were many advocating and reaching people with Samadhi (or getting drunk with emotions) as the path which is a way to Bhakthi Yoga, the greatest example of Gnana Yoga was Gauthama.....and he was more looked at during his times as a scientist...He smartly handed the people around him with lot of maturity and our Guru says, that his Sutras are mind boggling and extremely potent though they appear like simple algebraic formulae....!!
With the rich experience bestowed on me by the circumstances and the people around me, I pray Gauthama, The Budha and Sadhguru that I am able to reach my true potential as a human being.....and crave not to get into my typical "snake and ladder" game in life....!! I am already seeing great potential in me...though, just in glimpses.....which I had not taken care to even look at...all these years....if not nurturing them properly.....!!
I wish not to get down from the roller coaster of this life....and before my over bulged belly droops down and my muscles becomes flabby....before my head which is Black and White now turns vice versa....and before Doctor pronounces me a list of medicines to be taken compulsorily, let me systematically improve all the aspects about me....and be able to impact IF NOT influence people around me with my ever growing leadership skills......!!
Gurubyo Namaha....
suchoo